Just 2 more weeks

Hubby was sick on Saturday.... really really sick. So I took care of him the best I could without getting sick myself. I kept the house clean and washed everything. I made him wash the bed sheets when he was better the next day, though. I wouldn't touch 'em. I used hand sanitizer so much that day it was crazy. So... I slept on the couch. The very uncomfortable couch. The not so wide couch. The couch that doesn't like pregnant chicks. The couch with the horrible material....with the big blue light from the satellite box glaring in my eyes. I was up several times throughout the night with him. I fetched things for him for 2 days and one full night. I went to the 7-11 so many times. I think I would rather take care of Lilly when she's sick. She's not such a big baby like he is. I don't want that to sound mean or anything. She doesn't complain like he does. Yeah, she's whiney...but that's expected from a sick person. He is beyond whiney. You know what I get when I'm sick? I still get to cook and clean. I don't get to rest. The last time I was sick, I went to the 7-11 to get the stuff for myself, I cooked for the 2 of them, I didn't get to lay down for 2 straight days, and I had Lilly in my face almost the entire time. Apparently I'm not the only one who goes through this. I've talked to a few gals and they say that they would much rather take care of a sick child than a man and they don't get to rest when they are sick either. So, yes...I'm exhausted and a bit irritated.

Lilly finally asked me the question I've been expected her to ask for a long time. "Mommy? Mommies and Daddies are suppose to live together, so why don't you and daddy live together?" I explained it the best way I could.
"Because I'm living with Da da (that's what she calls hubby. That's what she's always called him) and Daddy is living with his girlfriend (we'll call her just gf for this blog). Da da is your step-dad and whenever daddy gets married, gf will be your step-mom. You'll have two dad's and two mom's. Daddy and gf have a kid and me and Da da is getting ready to have one."
"Yeah, mommy but how did daddy and gf have a kid and then you and daddy have me?"
"Um... that's just the way it worked out."
"But how are you and Da da having a baby if you and daddy already have me?"
"Because God wants you to be a big sister."
"Oh, ok."
It was a bit awkward, but I think she gets it. I told her about how I have a step mom and some step dads and that my mom and dad don't live together and everyone had different kids.


Oh..........................2 MORE WEEKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And happy 8-9-10!!!!!!

Week 16

Your Pregnancy: Week 16~Funny how everyone who's never been pregnant assumes all the changes you're going through are just located in your uterus. Nobody mentions the stuffy nose, the itchy skin, the sciatica, the outbursts of emotion. But just remember that all the funky things your body is doing are leading up to the big payoff of snuggling up with that little muffin in just a few months.

Your Body~No, you don't have a new superpower, although it'll feel like it because you're able to smell pizza, burnt toast or a pulled-pork sandwich from miles away. Your heightened sense of smell isn't the only new trick your nose is doing. You're probably noticing some extra nasal congestion and maybe even some nosebleeds to go along with it. Clearly your sense of smell is in overdrive, so try to avoid walking past the BBQ Pit or Curry Emporium. While pregnancy-related nasal congestion is annoying, it shouldn't cause any problems and will go away after the baby is born. If you're getting a lot of nosebleeds, it could be because your partner keeps cheaping out on theater tickets, buying seats located in the top row of the balcony. Either that or it could be an indication of high blood pressure, so check with your medical provider. But enough about your nose. Let's talk about your ever-enlarging ta-tas. Your boobs might still be tender, especially your nipples, and they're continuing to grow, grow, grow. You may even be able to squeeze a little colostrum (nutrient rich pre-milk milk) out of your boobs at this point. (If you can even touch your nipples without writhing in pain, that is.)

Your Baby~Your baby is already mugging for the camera as she practices all sorts of facial expressions, such as squinting, yawning and grimacing, which will come in handy when you introduce her to pureed spinach. Check out what else is happening in utero: You're just getting comfortable with being a new mom, but you're actually on the road to being a grandma. If your baby is a girl, her uterus is fully developed and the ovaries already hold primitive egg cells. Did that just make you feel a thousand years old, or what? Your baby's skin is still translucent and wrinkly, not unlike an old man's, but more fat will soon accumulate under the dermas to plump her out. If you could peer inside right now, you'd be able to see all of her veins under her skin. And speaking of veins, your baby's heart now pumps about 25 quarts of blood per day, and she hasn't even seen Orlando Bloom yet! Also, her eyes are now locked and loaded at their final destination, facing forward rather than to the sides. (Whew!) This is the week women get an amniocentesis, if their doc recommends it. In addition to supplying doctors with a boatload of info about the baby's health, amnios are also more than 99 percent accurate in determining what version of baby you'll be having. So if you want to know and you're getting an amnio, now's a great time to find out for sure.Your baby weighs about 3 ounces this week and measures between 4 and 5 inches, about the length of your mascara.

Another day....

Yesterday at work I felt a bit accomplished. It was like a light bulb came on and I understood some stuff for a split second....just long enough for me to finish my project. It still wasn't great enough for me to decide to stay. I need a new environment with new people. The people here are just ...... no....I'm not going to say it. I have actually found some jobs today with the state that I'm going to look into. Stuff like data entry, child support, lottery, health & human services, and my favorite... employment programs interviewer. The starting wage is more than what I make now and there's no degree required. The benefits are great and the hours are too. I'm excited about it. I'm going to take the info home today to talk to hubby about it first...see what he says. My boss did do my evaluation today right after I found that other job online. She said that she just wanted to make sure I knew how good I'm doing and how much she appreciates my hard work. That's how I roll....I've always been a hard worker, but to actually hear it from my boss makes me sad for thinking of leaving. She is a really great boss and after I leave I plan to continue to talk to her as a friend. I just really need to get out of here and find better opportunities for myself. I've just been going with the flow. I did have an awesome job back in late '07 early '08, but I let that one go cuz it took too much time away from my family. My family is and always will be my first...very first priority. Time with family is more important than money.

And yes...last night reality hit me and it hit me hard. I'm not a big fan of reality....I like my little dream world that I live in. Just the possibility of not getting that house, hubby not having a job yet, me not being able to find the time to go back to school, money being tight, not having insurance, a baby coming in 5 1/2 months, being disconnected from my family.... it all hit me last night at the same time. I made the mistake of telling hubby and now he thinks its all his fault... its not. He said that if we wouldn't have gotten laid off none of this would be happening...well...its not like he could've stopped them from laying him off. Yes, he should have done something about a job when he knew about his lay off back in March.... and we would probably have that house by now and health insurance but....... I don't know. I just don't want him to be sad over my ways of thinking. Yes, I'm sad about it all, but its ok.

I've been having a problem getting full. I can eat and eat and not get full anymore. I have to keep track of what I'm eating so I don't over eat without knowing. I'm still not really gaining any weight.... I think I've only gained a pound, if that.

Lilly's been doing great with writing. Her letters are more clear and recognizable. I mean... you could always tell what the letters were, but now they are on the lines right where they need to be. Her handwriting is getting better. She's also more interested in how to spell words instead of just making letters. She already knows a few words, but she's really getting into it now. I'm excited that she's so excited to learn. I hope she keeps that excitement, I always did. I loved school and learning new things. Even now, I love learning new things....

No news isn't really good news

No good news on the loan. No good news on hubby's job. Here is the email that the mortgage loan lady sent me last night.....

"Hello Rebekah:

I have not had any success up to this point getting itapproved. The low reserves and credit scores are an issue. I have notlooked at it yet as a Housing program loan. I am wanting to check onthe scores for the PMI on that. I am sorry, but that is where we are atright now. I will check those scores and see it that will work and Iwant to check with another lender to see if she thinks she might be ableto get it to work through FHA, if that is ok with you. I will just talkto her and explain the situation and then if she thinks it might work, Iwill give you her number."

So I sent her an email back and told her that hubby is really trying to get a job, but the unemployment office won't send out his application. He knows a guy that does the hiring at a warehouse, where he would be getting paid $19/hr.... but he had to go to the unemployment office to fill out the application and now its just sitting on some guys desk under a pile of papers. Its been there for about 2 weeks now....maybe more. His credit score is way better than mine...he's had more time to build on it. If they would have just sent out his application in a timely manner like they are suppose to do, he would have a job, and we would have the house. The whole situation makes me so sad because I know we can make those payments for the house with no problems. Even with him being laid off we can do it....just imagine if he got that job! The loan lady showed us an amount of around $566 for the monthly payments...that is no problem. We pay $250 in rent right now, I won't have my storage building anymore which is another $80, I pay $460 a month in day care which is getting ready to be reduced to either $256 or $336 (it depends if I put Lilly in before and after or just after school care).... my credit card balance is almost zero so that's another $100 (that's what I choose to pay monthly, not what I have to)....his is almost zero too, but he likes to use his, I don't. We have everything else paid off, our cars his 4-wheeler, our rings, my other credit cards, our medical bills (well I guess that's not counting what I'm accumulating now though, but I've still got my fingers crossed for the state insurance).... we can do it with no problems. I don't know... I just know we can do it. Even if we had that payment right now with everything else, we could probably still do it. He pay half, I pay half.... makes me sad.

Taking a day off next week to go see mom. I haven't seen her since June sometime. I'm excited.

Lilly's growing up just a little too fast....although having her being independent is going to help when the baby comes...its still makes me kinda sad. She no longer needs me to tie her shoes or help her take a shower. She doesn't need me to wash her hair or even brush it anymore. My baby's growing up... :-(

3 more weeks!

Just 3 more weeks until I find out if the baby is a boy or a girl!!! 3 more weeks and I can stop referring to the baby as "it." I'm so excited.

I went to the mall on Friday and bought some Belly Bands. They are suppose to help you keep wearing your regular clothes. You just put this band over top the pants that you can't quite fit into. You can leave them unbuttoned and the band smooths it out so no one can tell and it hold up your pants. They were about $17.00 each, but I know I will save money since I won't have to go out and get pants every time I get bigger. I can't find any maternity clothes that I like, so I've just been buying bigger clothes, but now I won't have to until its absolutely necessary. I'm wearing one today, I wanted to try it out so I wore a pair that's a bit snug. I don't know if I like them or not. It doesn't stay where its suppose to stay. Its rolls and moves about. If I put it where its suppose to go, when I sit down it rolls up on the bottom. If I fold it over, it makes me bulge in weird places. I'm going to be adjusting it all day. They only have one size....one size fits all deal. I mean...it fits...its just awkward. I may have worn the wrong shirt too. Its not that long and its a bit form fitting. This will probably be the last time I wear this shirt this year. Maybe tomorrow will be better.

Life is good. Haven't really been too unhappy lately. I still have my moments, but they aren't as bad. Been getting along with hubby very well. Been more patient with Lilly. Everything is fine and dandy..... for now anyway.

I think when I come back from maternity leave, I'm going to start actively looking for another job. They are wanting to move me up in this company and I just don't feel comfortable doing what they want me to do. I don't like this job and its getting harder for me to pretend that I do. I don't understand this job at all and I've been here for 2 1/2 years. I've told myself that if hubby does get this really good paying job at the warehouse, I'm going to go back to school. Take weekend or night classes or something. Something that won't interfere with my duties at home and take time away from my family. Maybe something online. I don't have a computer at home and I won't get one, but I could go to someone's house if needed I guess. I'll have to see what is offered before I get all excited about a certain job. I still really want to go into teaching, but if that's not really an option, then I will just have to settle with something else. Something that I know I'll like and enjoy. I need to stay here at this job until at least my maternity leave. If I change jobs now I won't be there long enough to qualify for a paid leave. I just really need to get out of here. I am miserable here. I've tried to put a smile on my face and learn to like this job, but I just can't anymore. If I could get out now and still have my leave.....I would in a heartbeat.

Um.....

So I kinda got my days mixed up and thought Wednesday was Thursday and that Thursday was Friday..... well...today is Friday. I don't really have anything today since I was prepared for the weekend and all.
Yesterday was a good day. I was in a good mood 95% of the day. That other 5% was spent fighting with Lilly's father.
Hubby kinda got a job.... so that makes me smile.
Um....... I think that's about it actually. I have nothing. I thought today was gonna be Saturday until last night when I couldn't find my shows on tv. Crazy brain.


Well........HAPPY FRIDAY!!!

Happiness....and a side note

My grandpa sent me an email yesterday.... I will share it with you.

We convince ourselves that life will be better after we get married. Then we convince ourselves that we'll be happy after we have a baby. Then we'll find happiness when we have another baby.
Then we are frustrated that the kids aren't old enough and we are sure we will be more content when they are. After that, we are frustrated that we have teenagers to deal with. We will certainly be happy when they are out of THAT stage.
We tell ourselves that our life will be complete when our spouse gets his or her act together, when we get a nicer car, are able to go on a nice vacation, when we retire.
The truth is, there is no better time to be happy than right now. If not now, then when? Your life will always be filled with challenges. It is best to admit this to yourself and decide to be happy anyway.
There is a famous quote from Alfred D Souza: "For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin - real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gottenthrough first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, or a debt to be paid. Then life would surely begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles WERE my life".
There is no way TO happiness. Happiness IS the way. So, treasure every moment that you have and treasure it more because you shared it with someone special, special enough to spend your time...and remember that time waits for no one.
So, stop waiting until you finish school, until you go back to school, until you lose ten pounds, until you gain ten pounds, until you have kids, until your kids leave the house, until you start work, until you retire, until you get married, until you get divorced, until Friday night, until Sunday morning, until you get a new car or home, until your car or home is paid off, until spring, until summer, until fall, until winter, until you are off welfare, until the first or fifteenth, until your song comes on, until you have had a drink, until you have sobered up, until you die, until you are born again.....to decide that there is no better time than right now to be happy.

Work like you don't need money,
Love like you've never been hurt,
And dance like no one's watching.
Happiness is a journey, not a destination


I'm going to think about this every time I start feeling down. I also saw that guy that I work with that got hit by a van while riding his motorcycle (I know I posted the story from the newspaper and some pics, but I can't quite remember the date...I think in April or May) and it did make me realize that no matter how bad of a day I am having...it could always be worse. He is doing good though. He has his prosthetic foot on and is walking without any crutches now. With everything that has happened to him (getting hit, losing his foot), he has always been smiling through the whole thing. He is my inspiration. It seems like nothing can bring him down. Whenever anyone would call or visit him, or when he would visit us here, he was always in a good mood and chipper. Thanks Jimmy!! Your positive attitude is very contagious. Its one thing to read about good things and good people, but to see and experience it is another. I hope I will turn into someone like Jimmy.
On a not so positive side note..... been having problems with Lillys father. School starts on August 20 and we live in separate school districts. As the parenting plan is set now, he gets her Thursdays and brings her back on Sundays. Obviously things need changed, but he is so against going back to court. He wants to work it out by ourselves, but I was stupid enough to try that once and he changed his mind on everything all of a sudden......so from now on I want everything in writing, signed by a judge and filed in the court systems. She can't miss Fridays. I want her back earlier on Sundays so I have more time to bathe, feed, spend time with her and do homework if she has any. Kindergarten....I don't know if they will have homework and if they do I doubt it will take more than 5 minutes. But right now he brings her back at 6. Her bedtime is at 8. We meet in the middle, between our houses. It takes me 30 minutes to get back home. So from 6:30 to 8, I'm trying to rush things to get them done with her and it makes us both frazzled. I want it changed where I get her back at 4 or 430. That would give me a little bit more time and we wouldn't have to rush things. I also can't have a weekend with her unless I ask permission from him first, I want that changed. I want her one weekend a month. Holidays can stay the same, that's fine. My time with her is very limited. I don't see my family unless I have Lilly....and I never have her, so we never see my family. I haven't seen my mom since mid June. Time is suppose to be split, but technically I don't see her on Thursdays. I drop her off to camp/school early in the morning and that's the last time I'll see her until Sunday. He said the only reason he doesn't want to go is ..... just because he doesn't want to go. He thinks we can do this ourselves..... I don't. I'm sorry, but I just don't have that much faith in his decision making and compromise. Get over it buddy. We're going back to court whether you like it or not. Oh and child support will even go down cuz she probably won't be in any kind of care. If she is, it will be dramatically lower than what I pay now. Child support will drop. That will help him out, but apparently he doesn't care. I was trying to be nice. That was one of the first things I told him, that the support will drop. Sorry.... no more nice. He already messed that up.

Week 15

I was trying to find better pictures of what the baby looks like now, but all the other pictures I found weren't as detailed as this one. I don't think I like these pictures anymore....but I will use them. Lets see... this website says that I may or may not be feeling the baby by now...well...I've been feeling it for almost 2 weeks... one week for sure. I'm always thirsty too. I drink well over the 64 oz they tell you to drink.

Your Pregnancy: Week 15~The initial shock has probably started to wear off by now and you're getting comfortable with this whole pregnancy thing. Soooo, now what? Thumb twiddling? Finger tapping? Welcome to the waiting game. Lucky for you, there's always something you can be doing/planning/obsessing over while you're pregnant. But why not wait on that and just enjoy the peace and quiet?


Your Body~Your energy may have returned but that doesn't mean you should be hitting the clubs until 4:00 AM every night. With a baby growing inside you, sleep is one thing that you can't go without. Try these tricks to ensure you beat up the sheets.If your growing belly is getting in the way of a good night's sleep, surround yourself with pillows to make for an extra-comfy nest effect. Sometimes room temperature can affect sleep, so make sure that your air conditioner is cranked up if you're feeling too hot.Some sleeping positions are more comfortable than others for pregnant woman, like the "I'm just going to pass out on the La-Z-Boy" position. And get comfy sleeping on your left side while you're preggers: It's what the docs recommend to keep the blood flowing full steam ahead between you and the tadpole.


Your Baby~Although many women don't start feeling the baby move until the 17th week (or later), your baby has been having his own party in the amniotic sac he calls home. If you feel a little flutter in your belly this week, don't discount it as gas or hunger. It could be your babe banging around. Here's more to look forward to: Baby's head is now resting on his well-formed neck instead of directly on his shoulders like Igor. He's beginning to grow eyebrows and eyelashes this week. (All the better to give you that "Mom, you're crazy" look when he's a teenager.) The hair on the head also begins to grow and, with some creative styling, you'll be able to turn those locks into a Maddox Jolie-Pitt faux-hawk some day. Although baby's eyes are sealed shut, he's now able to sense light. His eyes and ears finally look like real baby features now. As your baby practices sucking and swallowing actions, he may actually hiccup. You'll know he's had one too many shots of amniotic fluid by the steady thump-thump you feel. Over the next month, baby will grow faster than ever, so make sure you load up on enough nutritious food and fluids to support his growth. Your baby now measures nearly 4 inches, about the size of a Kit Kat "finger" (regular-size, not the Big one you get at the movies), and weighs almost 2 ounces.

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I am making a goal right now. After this baby is born, I'm going to do everything I can to get back to the weight I was before Lilly. I know its a long shot, but I've gotta try. Hubby didn't know me when I was skinny. He first met me when I was about 7 months pregnant the last time......and a year later we started dating. So, that's my goal. I want him to see the skinny me. I miss the skinny me. My bff sent me a pic of me and her together and it kinda made me sad. That was my motivation. I'm trying not to gain very much weight with this baby. I gained so much with Lilly. It sucks a little that its going to be born in the middle of winter. It makes it hard to get outside and exercise. Hopefully if we have that house, we can put exercise equipment in the basement or something and I can just workout at home.
I still have all this energy, but I'm so tired. I could lay down and go to sleep any time of the day....if I could just stop long enough. Been going to bed later and regretting it in the morning, but a few hours later.... its like a drank a large cup of sugar. I'm still tired, but I just can't stop.
My boss just told me that I should come up with a few goals that I would like to achieve in the next year or some things I would like to learn. There's quite a bit of things actually. I don't really understand what my department does. I know what I do. I file, transfer some money around, maintain files for housing bonds, and just a couple more things. I work in the corporate trust department of a bank, by the way. We deal mainly with companies and bonds and such. I would like to learn more about the things we do with DTC, how to close a bond, how to open a bond issue, how to do account reviews, and more about bond maturities. I don't really know much of anything about any of those. My boss said that I was hired to take her job when she retires.... I may or may not be here to do that. I have a good job with good pay and good hours, but I want a job that I enjoy doing. If I take her place that would put me out there working with the public on a very professional level...and well...let's face it....I'm not a very professional person. I still have goals to go back to school to be a teacher. That's my dream job. High school Biology and Anatomy teacher. One day.......one day. So anyway...while I'm here, I'm going to do my best to learn and maybe learn to like this job and everything that comes with the territory.....but I doubt it.
Yesterday when I got home I laid down on my stomach to play with Lilly for a bit, but I couldn't stay in that position. I could feel where the baby is. The baby, the fluid, everything....its like I was laying on a rock. I felt like I was squishing the baby even though it didn't protest and throw a fit...I rolled over anyway. I have been feeling the baby move like crazy now. There's no question that little weird feeling I feel is the baby now. Its like its break dancing in there. The movements aren't often, but they are strong. I was reading a magazine yesterday about pregnancy and it said if I made a fist....that's how big the baby is right now. Wow! I wonder why I'm not really huge. Imagine something the size of your fist in your stomach.....
I do think I'm a bit more excited about this pregnancy than I am with Lilly. Don't get me wrong, I loved being pregnant with Lilly and enjoyed every second of it...but I am more aware of what's going on this time around. I'm actually keeping track of what's going on, I know what to expect....last time I just went with the flow. I didn't track the growth, I was young, I was single, I was scared......well......I'm still scared. Its all very scarey to me.
I have also decided that I'm getting my hair chopped off before this baby is born. Maybe a month or so before. I have long brown hair...its past my butt. I can't remember the last time I had it cut. Trimmed yes, cut....no. I'm gonna go for anything super short...maybe somewhere between my shoulders and mid-back.... that's a big deal for me. I don't remember my hair ever being that short. I just remember how much of a pain it was to deal with my hair in labor and with a new born and I'd rather not do that again. Maybe even get rid of my bangs. I've had the same 'do forever. I did change it up a bit in '07, I got red streaks and a new style. My hair was parted on the side and my bangs were swooshed off to the side too. It made me look 10 years older than I was.... that hairstyle only lasted maybe 5 months before I put it back to normal. If I had my old phone I could post a picture of it.
Its only Tuesday and I'm already ready for the weekend..........

Back rub please.....

Neck cramp is still going strong. I think its gone from pinched nerve to an actual muscle cramp. I need a good massage.

I had so much energy yesterday that I cleaned the whole house! I slept in a bit, but as soon as my feet hit the floor I was wired. I've been kinda expecting hubby to clean up since he's home all day every day...but he doesn't. He washes the dishes and for that I am grateful. I picked up a whole trash bag full of trash, swept, did laundry, cleaned the bathroom real good, disinfected the kitchen...I even swept behind the refrigerator! By the time hubby got out of bed, I was done and wore out and was ready for a nap...but I couldn't stop long enough. I did everything but dust.......I really hate dusting.

Saturday I didn't sleep....like at all. I went to bed, slept an hour, woke up and noticed that hubby was still up. So I go into the family room, sat and waited for him. I hate going to bed by myself, and I've told him this several times, but he feels he is old enough that he can pick and chose when he will go. Well....I waited....and waited.....and waited....... and about 7 in the morning he finally says he's going to bed. I was soooooooo mad. I stayed on the couch. Yeah...I understand that he may not be tired since he sleeps in until whenever he feels like getting out of bed everyday and he doesn't really do anything, but watch tv and wash the dishes. But if he would get up at a decent time, he could go to bed at a decent time. Last night he finally came to bed around 3 in the morning after I gave up and went to the couch. I just feel that as a married couple we should go to bed together. Or at least he could go to bed shortly after me, not hours after me. He can't claim that he wants his alone time....he gets that everyday while I'm at work and Lilly's at day camp. I don't know. I hate going to bed alone and I hate waking up several times in the middle of the night and I'm still alone. How about you get a job that requires you to wake up before noon.....

Anyways...... it looks like I'm starting to show my baby belly. I got my first comment on it today. Its weird. With Lilly I didn't start showing until I was 6 months pregnant. That's how I got my first job. The boss told me that if he knew I was pregnant, he wouldn't have hired me. Um...isn't that discrimination or something? so anyway...like a week after they hired me, my belly just popped out. But now.....now I'm only 14 1/2 weeks and I've got a belly. And I can't find affordable maternity clothes anywhere!! I knew I should have kept my old ones. I gave them all away. Yeah, I knew I was going to need them later, but those people needed them. Now, I have nothing and can't find any. There's a couple stores in the mall that sells them, but wow...... I could buy a new car with those prices!

I don't know if I've mentioned this yet or not...but the underwriters for our house loan denied us. Our mortgage loan lady said that the bank manager was taking a look at our application to see if there was anything he could do to help us out. I really do hope we get it. My credit isn't as good as they want it to be, I think that's the problem. I just haven't had many opportunities to build on it. Its been a long time since we've heard anything...which means we probably won't get it. I still have my fingers crossed though. I've already started making plans for this house. I can see us starting our family in that house. We need the space....and I would really like to have a place that is ours.

Having problems typing. I can't count how many times I've used that backspace button in just typing this. Also having problems coming up with the right words when I'm talking to people. I know what it is that I want to say, but I just can't remember the word. Or I'll mix up my words. My boss says the baby is draining my brain. Its funny...I've heard of pregnant girls having problems like this....now I'm one of 'em.