*YAWN*

Oh, wow.... I'm really sleepy today. Like it literally hurts to type right now cuz I'm so extremely tired. I had a horrible, horrible dream last night. It was soooo real. Like I woke up and was seriously questioning if it had happened or not. I woke up crying. Horrible...just really, really horrible.

So a couple of days ago, I get a call from my bff to check out our high school on Wikipedia. Apparently someone had gone in and changed just about everything, but it was freaking hilarious!! Like the first thing it said was that the principal was a 12 year old. Some of the things it said was very creative. I wonder if the school knows that this is on there. I bet they don't or it would be gone by now. Great stuff!!

The radio in my office is all staticy today so I have been playing the new Josh Turner CD over and over again. *sigh* He is just so incredibly pretty to look at and wonderful to listen to. Yeah...I have become quite the Turner fan. Josh that is...not Tina! LOL!!

I don't know what happened to me. I use to not like country music at all and now its just about all I listen to. What's the deal? I think back to just a year or two ago and I was listening to heavy metal and now I somehow transitioned into country. That's one big leap right there. I still listen to the occasion rock song, but I hardly ever listen to metal music anymore. I just don't know what happened.......
Lady Antebellum is another one of my favorites these days. so many that I like.
I grew up listening to a combination of Reba Mcentyre (is that even how you spell her last name??), Tina Turner, AC/DC, Metallica and Rob Zombie. Mom was of course the country fan in the house. Mother's Day is just around the corner.... I've been working on a photo album for my moma. Pictures of my daughter, nephew, me and my little brothers...I think she will like it. There are more pictures I would love to put in the album, but they are currently on my camera and I need money to print them off. I may just have to break into my savings account.

So to all the mothers out there...every single one of you....in case I don't get the chance to write by next week....have a very Happy Mother's Day!!!!

Super Powers

If I had to choose which superpower I wanted, I believe I would pick mind reading or the ability to be invisible. Forget the flying, x-ray vision, or super strength, I want the good stuff.
See, the way I figure it, mind reading and invisibility would benefit me in so many ways. I could be invisible and attend college classes without having to pay for it. Yeah, wouldn't get a degree or anything, but I would have the knowledge. Mind reading would help me out in the same way.
Mind reading would tell me what people are REALLY thinking. I may not like some of the things I hear, but I think it would give me a better understanding of some people. I could read hubby's mind and know what he is really thinking. I could even read the minds of the smartest people in the world and know what they know.
I could go and buy a lottery ticket, then be invisible. Go to the place where they hold the drawings and make sure I win. I could get on an airplane and travel without anyone knowing I'm there.

Seriously....what would I do with the ability to fly. Go to and from work without hitting a single red light. Yeah, that's great and all, but I'll take mind reading over flying any day.
How about super strength? Lift cars off people.... that would be awesome, but how often will I be able to help in that area? How 'bout just being invisible and going places and doing things for free or sitting in on a meeting without the boss knowing, going to a party without an invite, going to an amusement park and not pay to get in..... oh, the possibilities!!
Puh...x-ray vision....what would I do with that? Look through walls? um...... how about a big fat NO.

You might be a fire fighter if....

So here's a little funny tribute to my hubby. We've all heard those "You might be a redneck" jokes, so here's some for fire fighters.

You might be a fire fighter if......

1. You can tell what type of fire it is by the smell of smoke 10 miles away.
2. You have ever had a heated debate over the color of fire trucks.
3. You have ever spent 10 min trying to force open a door only to have someone come along and open it by turning the handle.
4. You have ever taken 10 or more showers in 1 day.
5. You have ever been airborne without an aircraft and water was your thrust.
6. You have ever slept in a hosebed.
7. You've ever clung to the air horn chord for dear life because the driver is insane.
8. You have ever played jingle bells at Xmas time on the air horns to clear traffic.
9. You have ever said, "she's hot tonight" and not been talking about a girl.
10. You have ever had "yoda ears."
11. You have ever smoked and there wasn't a cigarette in sight.
12. You have ever stomped out a fire with your boots because you couldn't wait for water.
13. Your kids are afraid to get into water fights with you.
14. You have ever uttered the words, "I can break the door if you need me to Cap," before actually testing to see if it is locked.
15. If you have more toy fire trucks than your kids do.
16. You run towards a dangerous situation and not away from it.
17. You have ever been dressed from head to foot in rubber and it was not a sexual experience.
18. Your idea of ventilation is done with a chainsaw and not a Bag-Valve-Mask.
19. You've ever cursed a guy for amor-alling the seats in the rig.
20. You take great joy in smashing the windows of a car parked in a fire zone or in front of a hydrant.
21. You take pride in the fact that you haven't washed your gear in years.
22. All the shirts you own say you are a firefighter.
23. The smell of a fire excites you more than sex does.
24. A great stop has nothing to do with a moving vehicle.
25. You roll around in anything that just burned to make your new gear look old.
26. You have ever juggled hot coals with your gloves.
27. If you think its normal to sleep with a full set of clothes ready by your bed as if you were someone planning for an escape, and nothing wakes you up but the tones
28. If you have a siren as your ring tone
29. If you have had more than one person report a fire to you at home instead of calling 911 because they knew you would be able to get there sooner
30. If smoke on the horizon becomes a personal mission and could change your plans for the day.
31. If the 911 dispatcher knows you by name and you have never called 911.
32. If your kids yell fire and you run for your vehicle.
33. If you can tell the difference between five different tones before they are done sounding
34. If you have accidently dropped a cigarette and gone back three times to make sure that you did not start a fire
35. If the thought of having a real Christmas tree has given you nightmares.
36. If the only part of a fireworks display that you can recall is trying to determine where they landed.
37. If you can get dressed in a dark room without turning on the lights faster than you can get dressed after the alarm clock goes off.
38. Your kids have ever brought a real fire truck to show and tell.
39. You've ever been too tired to work on the "honey do" list, but not too tired to fight a structure fire.
40. You've left a formal dinner for a major response.
41. If you use the Fire house to host a Birthday party

I don't know if you have to be a fire fighter or even know one really well to get these, but they are hilarious. Hubby is guilty of probably 75% of these. P.S....I got him a shirt that has that blue picture on it last Christmas...I think I finally bought him something that he actually likes.

I Pray For You

Just heard a GREAT, hilarious song and I just had to post the lyrics to it. Its called I Pray for You by Jaron and the Long Road to Love



I havent been to church since I don’t remember when

Things were goin’ great ‘til they fell apart again

So I listened to the preacher as he told me what to do

He said you can’t go hatin’ others who have done wrong to you

Sometimes we get angry, but we must not condemn

Let the good Lord do His job and you just pray for them

I pray your brakes go out runnin’ down a hill

I pray a flowerpot falls from a window sill and knocks you in the head like I’d like to

I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls

I pray you’re flyin’ high when your engine stalls

I pray all your dreams never come true

Just know where ever you are honey, I pray for you

I’m really glad I found my way to church

‘Cause I’m already feelin’ better and I thank God for the words

Yeah I’m goin’ to take the high road

And do what the preacher told me to do

You keep messin’ up and I’ll keep prayin’ for you

I pray your tire blows out at 110

I pray you pass out drunk with your best friend and wake up with his and her tattoos

I pray your brakes go out runnin’ down a hill

I pray a flowerpot falls from a window sill and knocks you in the head like I’d like to

I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls

I pray you’re flyin’ high when your engine stalls

I pray all your dreams never come true

Just know where ever you are, near or far, in your house or in your car,

wherever you are honey, I pray for you.

So I ended up going to my bff's house over the weekend. Didn't really get anything accomplished. We got 3 boxes packed for her. Was hoping to get more done than that, but Saturday kinda got away from us. We always seem to lose time. Don't know what's on my agenda for this weekend yet. HMmmmm..... Oh and I need to retract any statement I made on here that said that she lived 2 hours away...yeah...its 4!! So I guess moving 5 1/2 hours away in a month isn't much of a difference except she will be in a different state then.

I'm still waiting for my autographed copy of the Book of Awesome. I'm still so very excited about it!! I'm going to have to go get some family members a book. Today's post is about napping with someone else. See...they are all awesome!! Little things like that. Things that we know put a smile on our face, but we don't really pay much attention to. Love that blog and I can't wait for the book!!

Something I found quite interesting....a cat that traveled from New Mexico to Chicago in 8 months. Wow!

http://abcnews.go.com/Travel/missing-cat-charles-found-chicago/story?id=10403983 ~ there's the story.

Nothing new really going on. Still haven't gone to visit Mary's grave. I really want to. Hopefully I will get to do that soon.

Anyways....its Tuesday. Lovely, lovely Tuesday. Work is getting kinda slow. Boss is out today. I want to take a vacation day so bad just to spend the day by myself doing nothing in particular, I want a day off from everyone and everything.

Too much to do and little time to do it

Ok...so this weekend is gonna be crazy and I have so many people that want me to spend time with them. First is my hubby. He's going camping with a few friends and I love to camp, but I told him that he may just want to make this a guy's weekend cuz no other girls are going. I'd still love to go and he still wants me to go, but I think he needs his guy time.
Then, my bff wants me to come up and visit her. She lives 2 hours away and is getting ready to move 5 1/2 hours away. I haven't been to see her place since she moved and I hardly ever get to see her. I would love to go see her, but I hate to be that far away in case something happens with my daughter while she is with her father.
Finally, my mom wants me to spend the weekend with her. I hate to tell her no cuz she lives by herself. I only see my mom about once a month and I have yet to see her this month. If I go see her, I could go visit Mary's grave to say my goodbyes.
But....I could just stay home and disappoint everyone. I could sleep in, stay in my pajamas all weekend and catch up on what I have on the DVR. Yeah...sounds like a good idea for a little while, but I know I would end up bored out of my mind.
Hmmmmmmm........ I think all the sign point to my bff's house. I will just worry the whole time I'm up there about my little girl.
Its funny though...cuz usually I have nothing to do and I'm either home alone, watching tv with hubby or we end up at one of his friends houses.


Oh, and did I mention that I have court tomorrow.......I'm not very excited about that. Its nothing major, its just with baby daddy. The child support people reopened my case and now we have to go back to court. We have everything worked out but I just really hate going to court and I have a feeling that he is going to back out of everything he has agreed to. We'll see I guess.

And this show that I absolutely love is the Jamie Oliver's Food Revolution. It was filming just 20 minutes from where I live. If I would have known he was there, I would have gone and at least took his cooking class. I am a big fan of the Naked Chef. So anyways if you haven't checked out this show, you really need to. He is trying to get healthier food into the schools and throughout the nation. He has a petition for everyone to sign saying that they support what he is doing and want to see a change. I have signed it....Now, its your turn.

Numb

I'm still feeling a bit numb today. Don't really want to do anything.
Yesterday, I was feeling so sad and depressed about my friend dying and me not knowing about it. I couldn't be left alone for too long or the tears would start flowing and not stop. I kept myself occupied by talking to everyone I work with and calling a few people. Didn't get much work done yesterday...I should have just gone home. I think I'm all cried out now. Spent most of last night by myself. I needed hubby but he was too busy to tend to my needs. That made me feel worse. Was I being too selfish? I don't know. Maybe. I was/am going through a hard time and I needed my husband to be there for me, but he went to the fire station for their Monday meetings. He said he would be back as soon as he can. He comes strolling in after midnight. All night I tried to put a smile on my face for my daughter so she wouldn't see me sad. I didn't even get to see her that much. Hubby let her go to a friends house and she came home after he had already gone. Gave me an hour to bathe her, feed her and get her homework done. I fell asleep on the couch last night in hopes of getting woken up by hubby at a decent hour so I can finally have someone to talk to, but it was too late and I needed to get some sleep.
Hopefully I can go this weekend to Mary's grave and have a talk with her, tell her goodbye. That's what is bugging me the most about this whole situation. I didn't get to tell her goodbye. The last conversation I had with her was me telling her that she needed to go to the hospital.
Being a volunteer for Relay For Life will give me an opportunity to show Mary just what she meant to me. I relay for her now. Before I didn't really know anyone that ever had cancer. I have had some family with cancer, but they were distant relatives and I didn't know them all that well. Mary was a very close friend and I do regret not being there for her when she needed me. Hopefully I will be able to forgive myself for that one day. I will relay in the memory of my dear friend, Mary.
http://main.acsevents.org/site/TR?px=8267116&pg=personal&fr_id=24762 ~ this is my personal Relay page. I haven't had a chance to update it yet telling my story about Mary....I don't know exactly how to put it into words for that site. But there it is...go visit. Please donate to help find a cure for cancer.

My dear friend

The weekend was not one of the best weekends for me. My grandpa lost a pint of blood because something broke off inside his nose or something and it wouldn't stop bleeding.
My best friend's brother was in a head on collision. Her family is like my family so it might as well have been my brother in that wreck. He is ok, but he was driving her car. Its totaled.
Also found out yesterday that one of my dear friends past away a few weeks ago and I didn't even know about it. I worked with her for 2 years before I quit and moved on to other jobs. I still stopped in every once in a while to see her and a few others. Me and my daughter called her Maw Maw Mary. The last time I saw her, I was telling her to go to the hospital because she was coughing up blood. A couple of days after that I was told that she had lung cancer. I wanted to call her or go visit her, but I was afraid that I would get in the way for her family. She was admitted in a hospice house and past away there on March 28, 2010, she was 53. I should have gone to see her while she was in the hospice house. I should have called. I should have stayed in better touch with everyone. I should have been at the funeral on April 1. I should have been there for her daughter. I wish I would have known. I have no one to blame but myself. I missed the opportunity to say goodbye to one of my best friends. She was always there for me and I should have been there for her. She gave me advice and guided me in the right places. She was like a grandma. I don't even have a picture of her or anything. As long as we worked together, I should have at least a picture. Ever since I left that workplace, I haven't gotten close to any other co-workers. That was a special place. That place had Mary. She will forever be in my thoughts and prayers. At least I know she is pain free now; she is at peace now. My heart aches for her and many tears still fall for her. Mary...I miss you so much and I'm sorry I wasn't there when you needed me most. I should have been there. I should have been there to hold your hand. I should have been there to give you some comfort. I should have been there for you.

TGIF

The long awaited Friday is here. Rest, relaxation, sleeping in........ and then cleaning. Saturdays are my hardcore cleaning days.

I had one crazy dream last night that involved penguins and the flying monkeys from the Wizard of Oz. CRAZY!!!!

So, I'm sure I'm not the only one who has lists of things they want to do before they hit a certain age. I have a list of things I want to do before I turn 30 and I will share those.

Buy a house

Have a baby....or two

Get a job that I love

Learn how to sew

Learn how to drive a stick shift

Write a book

Go to the beach

Get back to my pre-baby weight

Get a new hairdo

Learn Italian

Relearn French

Places I want to go eventually:

Italy, Scotland, France, New York, California, Las Vagas, and go back to Canada.

Now I think I need to explain some of the things on my list. I want to learn how to sew so me and my bff will eventually get to making our own clothes and hopefully become designers. Get a job I love..... everyone needs one of those. Hairdo...I have had the same 'do forever. Elementary school probably. I tried changing it once, but that didn't last long. My hair is just too long....its down to my behind. I need to get it wacked off. And finally...in order to go to the places I want to go, I feel the need to learn their language.

So everyday is a step toward crossing things off my list.

AWESOME

Oh...how could I forget to mention~ THE BOOK OF AWESOME is out today. So excited for Neil. I am awaiting my copy in the mail and am planning on buying some more. Again....if anyone is reading this and hasn't checked out 1000awesomethings.com you really really really should. In a world full of grief and horrible news, this blog brings a positive light back into the world. Can't wait to read the book. I'm sure it is just as good...maybe even better. I will have to let ya know.
It makes a person really appreciate the little things in life and makes you stop and think. It reminds me to look around everyday to find all of these little things that make me smile or it reminds me of childhood memories I had long forgotten about. Oh, I could go on and on about how great this site is, but you'll just have to go check it out for yourself to see. Did I say it was a great site? I meant to say AWESOME site.
Just thought I'd put that out there........ go to the site, give a look around, comment and meet some really great...no....awesome people, and if ya like it.....go get the book. I highly recommend it.
:-)

Intro to myself

Its tax day! Fortunately, I have already filed my taxes. Wasn't too happy about the outcome of it all, but at least it was better than last year. Everyone here at work is running around like a chicken with its head cut off trying to get everything done by the deadline. I work in the trust department of a bank and we basically have to do parts of clients taxes and get them mailed out today. They should have done it a long time ago Well...they do, I don't. I work in the corporate trust department. Most of our client are businesses and such. Procrastination gets the best of everyone, though.
Ok, now that I have said that....I will move on to better introduce myself. I know I probably don't have anyone out there reading this....but just in case.
Born and raised in WV in the country. I am a country girl. I love 4 wheeling, camping, hunting, fishing, getting muddy and just basically being outdoors. I'm 23 with a 5 year old daughter. Got married almost 2 years ago to a volunteer fireman. I moved out of my country setting when I got married and took my child to live with hubby in a small city. Well, I don't know if you would call it a city, but its certainly not a town. I volunteer for Relay For Life. My boss here at the bank is the team captain. I have one really good friend from high school. She is the only one who has stuck with me. Love her to death. She already moved 2 hours away last year and now she is getting ready to move 5 1/2 hours away. I cried last time, I'd hate to see what I do this time. Cling to her leg and beg her not to go?
I'm pretty quiet, love to read, cook, spend time with my family. I have never been to a beach or on an airplane. My next step in life is to get a house and have another child. Hopefully the house will come first. There are 3 of us squishing in a one bedroom apartment. All of my stuff is in storage. I don't really have any of my belongings in the apartment. Some clothes, that's it. My daughter has most of her stuff. I just wish we had more room.
Did I mention that I love food? I don't love food so much that I am extremely overweight or anything. Look at my picture up there. I know I'm not skinny....I'm healthy. So anyways.....I love Chinese and Mexican food. I'm trying to perfect making Chinese food at home. I love to experiment in the kitchen. I'm always trying out new things and making up my own recipes. They aren't always the best, but I learn from my mistakes.
My life revolves around my daughter. She is my world. I would do anything for her. She reminds me so much of myself. She acts so grown up and is so smart. I know most parents probably say that, but she REALLY is. She can get along with just about anyone. She is kind, articulate, empathetic, bright, and happy. She learned how to write her name when she was 2. She can count to 100 and beyond. She can cut a straight line with scissors, which is more than I can do. She uses big words that I don't think any other 5 year old will know. She wants to be a doctor when she grows up. I know that will probably change. I use to want to be a professional ice skater at her age and I couldn't even skate.
I went to college for Biology, but dropped out after a semester and a half because I had my daughter. My scholarship wouldn't let me take time off to have a child and I had no other way to pay for it. One of these days I will go back. While pregnant I was a full time student with a full time job. After I had her I was a full time mom with a full time job....and I still am. Times are tough sometimes. Trying to split the time between me and her father. We are due to go back to court next Friday.
So...that's basically me. I'm happy where I am in life but I have big dreams for more.
I hope everything came out ok on this post since I copied and pasted it.

Another Day

Yet another day.
I was looking around on here yesterday and I noticed that most of the people with blogs are professionals.... Web designers, realtors, managers, and even a few translators. I'm not a professional in anything. I couldn't really find a 'normal' person on here.
In case anyone is reading this that hasn't heard of 1000awesomethings.com you really need to go check it out. Possibly the best blog EVER!! It always puts a smile on my face and I have met a few really nice people. Its a guy counting down the 1000 most awesome things. From the cool side of the pillow to hitting a string of green lights to unsafe playground equipment to having a really good cry....this blog has it all. The Book of Awesome comes out tomorrow. I urge anyone and everyone to go get one. I won mine on that site. Neil, the creator, was holding a contest and I won a book. I'm so excited about it!


So, I will probably post again later today. Depends on how I'm feeling. I'm a bit sick right now, so I wanted to keep this short and sweet.

First day blogging

This is my first ever blog. I don't know if I should congratulate or feel sorry for the people that happens to come across this. Not exactly sure what I want to write about, I guess I will just have to wait to see where my mood takes me. I'm excited about this experience. I may be the only person in the world who has never blogged before. I don't have a facebook or a myspace either. I know, I know.... who doesn't have one of those, right? Well...I can't help it. Not really that interested in those things. It took me this long to decide I want to do this. Hmmm......
Well, to introduce myself a bit~ I am a proud mother of a 5 year old beautiful girl, married to a wonderful man and still wondering what my dream job is. I have a job, but its only paying the bills....barely. Um.... we are looking for houses so we can expand our family, but that's not going too well either. Possibly more on that later, I don't want to bore you too much on my first post. I'm really doing this for myself more than anything. I think this will give me a way to vent and a way to look back and reflect.
Well, I shall leave it at that and be on my way. I know this is kinda short, but I just wanted to get started.