Things and Stuff

Tuesday I walked my 2 miles and my feet hurt afterwards. I wore the my work shoes... with no support and the bottoms are almost wore off. So, I brought in my good tennis shoes to put on when I go out. Unfortunately, I couldn't go yesterday due to the rain, but I'm going to try to go today and maybe take a different route. I've got to push myself to get out there and get it done. I've sort of cheated a bit on my 'diet.' Tuesday, I hardly ate all day so I could treat myself to some KFC....and then I ate too much KFC. So, I told myself that I slipped up, but I'll be better tomorrow. Wednesday, I took 2 small chicken wings we had leftover for lunch, but then for dinner I had a calzone. I told myself when I opened the box, "Just eat half and put the other half in the fridge for lunch tomorrow." I should have just went ahead and put half in the fridge because I ended up eating all of it. This morning, I traded my cappuccino for an orange juice and I have no idea what I'm doing for lunch. I have a thing of chili in my desk that's 260 calories per serving...so all of it is 520 calories. Maybe I'll go to Subway and get a salad or something instead. I was going to jump on the Wii Tuesday night while hubby was away and the kids were in bed, but it took Zach forever to go to sleep and he yelled for me about every 5 minutes. I couldn't get a workout in, so I took 5 minute intervals of 'me time' and sat on my bed and watched some funny videos on my phone.

Last night, I was in bed for maybe 10 minutes and I swear my heart felt like it was trying to jump out of my chest. It was beating hard and fast and I couldn't breathe. I thought I was having a panic attack. Hubby got out of the shower and I hollered for him to come sit with me while I freaked out. It took me about half an hour to calm down and my heart rate to go back to normal. I just kept thinking about what would we do with the kids if I was actually having a heart attack or something and I had to go to the hospital and it just made me freak out more and I couldn't calm down. I don't know what triggered it. I don't know why it happened. Its not my first 'episode' though. I used to get them a lot when I was in high school and I had to wear a heart monitor for a week to try to figure out what triggered it. We never figured it out. I don't think I've had a problem like this since 2008 when me and hubby were in the process of separating. I remember hyperventilating and crying and second guessing my decision to leave. It only took us 2 months to get back together and work things out.

I got a little bit of decorations for Zach's birthday party from a girl I used to go to school with and am slowly starting to hang out with again... Rachael. I now have a Mickey happy birthday banner, a Mickey poster, a Mickey candle, Mickey cups, red and black plates, red and black napkins, some plastic dinnerware, black and yellow balloons, a Mickey cupcake stand, Mickey cupcake papers and some Mickey streamer. We still need to get some more balloons, helium tank, the cake, the food, the stuff for the cookies, a pinata (maybe), drinks, table clothes and goodies bag stuff for all the kids. This is going to be a huge party and I really didn't even mean for it to be.

Hubby's going Saturday to get Zach's Big Wheel for his birthday. I think after that, we'll be done. I don't want to get much since we just had Christmas and he has so much already. So far we have the t-ball set, 2 hotwheels cars, a push and go Monster truck and then his Big Wheel. If everyone I invite shows up and gets him just one thing... thats still too much stuff and I know hubby's mom will go overboard and get him a bunch of stuff.

Friday, Lilly's having a show and tell at school. She wants to take one of her Monster High dolls. She's going to her father's today and doesn't want to take the doll there so I'm going to drop it off to day care Friday for her and get it back from her after school. She hasn't had a show and tell since preschool and they did it once a week. I was getting tired of trying to figure out what she could take for show and tell.

I'm going to try to go out walking today before the rain hits again. I wouldn't mind walking in the rain if I didn't have to come back to work afterwards. I can't come in and look all professional with soaking clothes and rain hair and umbrellas are such a pain. If it is raining when I am able to go out, I'll walk in the parking garage. Its supposed to be warmish again today.

Oh... my Australian friends.. I hope all of you are safe. I read a couple days ago about the fires and was trying to figure out if I knew anyone in that area, but to tell the truth... I have no idea where any of you are. And... I just spent about 15 minutes on Google Maps on the street view in Melbourne. I think I know what I'm doing for the rest of the day. I'm traveling the world through Google Maps!

I must get back to work. Lunch is about an hour away and I have to figure out what I'm doing.