Just not into it today

Birthday was ok. Hubby tried hard. I was just in a weird mood and very tired. All I wanted to do was crawl into bed and be left alone so I could sleep. I got home with the kids, he had filled up Lilly's pool for her to play in and wrapped my stuff-after calling me asking where the wrapping paper was. He got a card from each kid and one from him. I got Barbie brand Wizard of Oz dolls- a Dorothy and the Wicked Witch. I love Wizard of Oz, EVERYONE knows this. I have so much Oz stuff. I told Lilly that when she gets older, she's getting all of it. I guess that will be something I will over to her. I know a lot of it will be worth lots of money one day. He got me an ice cream cake and we ordered pizza. I gave Zach a bath and played with Lilly. I was so tired by the time I had the time to go to bed. I'm still so tired today. I didn't sleep well, but Zach only woke up once. He didn't roll over in his sleep last night. I guess he was wore out too.

So here at work I am now the assistant of 2 people. My first boss, love her to death, I do work... like filing and transactions and whatnot. The other one, the big boss guy, I do little errands for. Just basically whatever he asks me to do. I've been ordering him stuff, getting meetings organized, stuff like that... and I haven't seen a pay raise yet. I don't get paid 'til tonight, but he hasn't talked to me about a raise yet. I'm thinking that maybe he's waiting to see how I'm going to do with the meeting coming up on the 21. At least that's what I'm hoping. I can't live off the money I'm making now. Not with 2 kids, 2 bills for daycare and us trying to get a house.... and paying for healthcare. Yeah, having health insurance has helped us out, a lot, but I just wish it didn't cost so damn much. I'm hoping that my raise I'm hoping to get at least covers the amount I'm paying for the insurance. That way I'd be back to bringing home what I was a few months back.

Not really feeling it today. Lack of sleep sucks big time. I really wanted to call off today, but I had some files to pull since I didn't do them yesterday. Yesterday just sort of got away from me. I didn't really do much. I did my morning work, my mail run, went out and got some Subway, read the news, helped some people out, filled out some forms for the big boss guy... and it was time to go home.

Hubby's suppose to be going out this week to Ohio to get some fireworks and while he's gone I'm going to get the kids to make his Father's Day gift. Its about a 2 hour drive and he'll be in the store a minimum of an hour, and they'll probably stop somewhere to eat something.... so by the time I get home with the kids, I should have plenty of time to do it and let it dry. I just hope that Zach cooperates and his handprint doesn't come out as a smudge. Hubby tried to get Zach's handprint on my card from him, and he screamed and cried. I was outside while he was doing it, but I heard him crying. I never had that much trouble of him to do it.

So, Friday at 3:00 I went to K-Mart and spent a little over $18. Saturday I went to the store and got gas for $45 and groceries for nearly $120. Yesterday I made a deposit of $270 before 5:00. Well.... today... I have 3 overdraft fees because the bank didn't put my deposit in yet. And the way they did my debits is just wrong. They went from high to low even though the lowest amount should have came first cuz it was on a Friday. I'm very upset about this. If they would have taken the money out in the order I did the transactions, I would only have 1 overdraft fee, not counting my deposit. If they would have put my deposit through, I would be just fine! I do get paid tonight, but its already going to be gone. Mailed out a medical bill of almost $500 and gotta pay day care for a week for both kids. And hubby thinks we can afford a house......

My birthday!

Happy birthday to me.... IS it a happy birthday? I don't know. Its too early to tell. Didn't sleep last night. Zach rolls over a lot now and he does it in his sleep and wakes up on his back mad. I was up about every hour, rolling him back over. I really should have taken today off. I'm wore out.

Friday was great. Relay went great. Zach was great. Everything was great. I was a little upset because I invited a lot of people and none showed up. Ok, one guy I use to go to school with and his gf showed up and hubby came a few hours late. Here's some pics from Relay

It really was a lot of fun, but I kinda noticed how.... boring (?) it could be for someone that isn't involved or anything. I watched my friend and his gf be bored out of their minds for an hour before they headed out. There really isn't much to do unless you are a part of it all. Its kinda like a big party with a bunch of games and events, but if you're not doing any of them or anything, you're just sort of walking around. I am super glad they came, I just wish they could have stayed for the candle ceremony. It was nice to see him and meet his gf.

We stayed until 11:00 and went home. Zach cried all the way home. NO, not cried, he screamed. As good as he was at Relay, he let it all out on the ride home.

Saturday was the open house at the fire station. I didn't have to stand out in the road this year to collect donations. I had Zach with me. He was good there too. We walked over half an hour after it started and hung out in the fire station for a bit talking to a few guys and getting the names of the new guys. Zach and me both were getting hungry so we went to the fire station's community building for the hot dog sale. It was nice and air conditioned in there. Zach ate a bit, I grabbed a bbq and then the other people started to pour in. A family friend and her family, hubby's sister and her kids... they came and sat with me and Zach. We visited for a bit and I took Zach out to go find hubby. He was busy. They had their stations they needed to be at. (kinda glad I wasn't a part of that this year...it would have been hard to juggle all of it with Zach) There was the people in the road collecting donations, some upstairs counting the money, some in the community building helping serve food, some out at a car tearing it apart, some were in the hanger to give tours and answer questions, and some were on the tanker truck spraying water for the kids to play in.

I stayed for a few hours and headed out to the store..... and spent more money than I had intended.

OH, hubby's mom got Zach a pair of sunglasses. Heres some pics.

I get Lilly back today. Her father said that her sunburn is tanning and not peeling which is great. This week is water week at the Y and I hope they remember her sunscreen.... and to reapply it! 

So my day has just began, I've had 3 people tell me happy birthday-my bff, hubby and my uncle. I still don't really like celebrating my bday, but I'm glad I'm alive and well enough to have one. That's where my awesome thing of the day comes in **birthdays** I'm not expecting anything special today. I'm not really expecting anything at all today. I am going to go get myself some birthday lunch. I don't know where yet. Hubby said he got me something, I don't really want anything...or need anything. I would like to go look at some houses today for my birthday. That would be great. We got pre-approved for a mortgage loan last month, and haven't looked or even called about a house since. I've tried to get him to get some numbers and call, but he hasn't. I wanted to go look at some houses yesterday, cuz there's this one that we are kind of interested in... but we didn't. I was stuck in the house ALL day yesterday. I kept trying to get Zach to go for a walk. We got up early, but by the time I had a shower and he had a bath and breakfast, it was too hot to go. By the time it had cooled down enough to go, he was grouchy. I did get to go out on the porch during one of his half an hour naps and read a few pages in my book. I've been trying to read The Wedding by Nicholas Sparks since February, but I just haven't had the time.

Well... happy birthday to me!! I'm 25. I can't believe I'm halfway to 50. When I'm 50, hubby will be 59, Lilly will be 31 and Zach will be 25!! Zach will be my age when I'm 50. He'll be half my age. Lilly will be half my age when I'm 36, she'll be 18. Wow!

Ugh...Monday.

Relay went well. It wasn't as good as it was last year....it seemed a bit unorganized. The ceremony wasn't as teary eyed as years before. I didn't bring my camera today to see if I could put some pics up, I'll try to remember tomorrow. There wasn't as many luminary bags as there was last year either. Last year, they were everywhere and it was such a beautiful sight, but this year there was "holes." Lilly's father brought her and her sister down for a bit. They were there long enough to do the Jupiter Jump and for me to take some pictures of Lilly on the capitol steps with the words HOPE and CURE wrote out in luminary bags. Lilly decorated a bag, too. Hers had a drawing of a person, a butterfly, and the alphabet. We left Relay a bit early because I was in pain. We left at 10:30. I was wanting to stay longer, but I couldn't sit there anymore, I needed to stretch out and lay down. Missed the chicken dance and they scavenger hunt. Next year, I will try to stay the whole 24 hours.

What is up with these rubber bracelts shaped like stuff? Its apparently all the rage with the kids. Lilly got one a month ago from a cousin...it was shaped like a mermaid. I bought her some at Relay...a star, guitar, ice cream cone, and a drink.... when we went out for my b-day we found 2 in the window seal...an ant eater and a porcupine. They are shaped like anything and everything you can think of. There's clothes, food, animals, dragons, castles, even the alpabet. These things are everywhere.

Birthday was ok. Lilly slept in 'til 9. I woke up way before she did, but kept going back to sleep. I figured if she was going to let me sleep, I was going to take it. Her and hubby left to go shopping, so I stayed home and did laundry and caught up on my DVR. He called me like a million times while they were out. First to ask me what I wanted....I didn't know...I didn't really want/need/have room for anything. Then, he called to tell me that his cousin is in for a little while. Then, he called to tell me he locked his keys in my trunk and his sister was bringing him home to get my keys. I locked the door and when he showed up to get my keys he knocked on the door. I started laughing and yelled through the door for him to use his keys to get in. I did that for like 5 minutes. He called one more time, but I don't remember why. They had fun out shopping together. They got me an ice cream cake that we have yet to jump into. I also got my first birthday balloon ever. Yes, that's right...I have never had a birthday balloon...at least one that I can recall. I never told them that, they just got me one. I love it. I've had balloons...just not birthday balloons. They got me a few more things...I love it all. Went to IHOP for dinner...... I had forgotten how awesome IHOP is. We have decided to make that our new place...at least until we try everything. I even got a bit of a foot rub last night too!!!


I have Lilly for the next 2 weeks!!! Then, she's going camping for a week and a half with her father's mom. Her father is going almost a month without seeing her. He and his girlfriend and their kid took off yesterday. I don't know where they went, I'm just happy I have Lilly for so long.

Next week is vacation!!!!!!! A very much needed vacation. Some good family time and some good rest. We're not really going anywhere, like the beach or anything. We are staying home and just going to do stuff. Movies, bowling, water park, museum, visit family. Fun, fun, fun. Hubby said something about going to Kings Island, but then he said we can't because I'm pregnant.....didn't think about it until just now, but we're going to have Lilly....we're not going to be able to get on a big roller coaster.......I'm sure I can still do little rides........I don't know. I'm going to have to look up the rides.

**EDIT** Ok...so I looked it up and the only rides I can really do is the merry-go-rounds and like one with a train. There's some I could do if I was like a foot shorter. I can't even ride the little kids rides. So....I guess we could still go, I'll just stand and wait for them and take pictures. I don't know.

I'm officially another year older and supposedly another year wiser.

Happy birthday

Why do I keep forgetting to mention things??
MY BIRTHDAY IS SUNDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Turning the big 2-4.
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June is a busy month

I know this might sound a little crazy, but here lately...my shoes have to be tied really tight. I can't stand them being even a little bit loose. If I feel them slip up on my heel, I stop whatever I am doing, and tie my shoe tighter. I use to not care. My one pair of tennis shoes that I have had forever, hadn't been untied for years...until this little obsession came to surface. Those shoes were tied the perfect looseness/tightness where I could just slide my feet in and slide them back out without the shoes coming off mid-day. Now, I feel the need to tie and untie them several times a day just so they will stay tight. My work shoes are a bit big on me (I have really wide feet and have to buy shoes a size bigger for them to fit), so I am tightening them up more frequently. Right now, my right foot is going to sleep because my shoe is tied so tight, but I can't stand for it to be any looser. Is looser even a word? I don't know why I am doing this and I don't know if its going to turn into a problem.

Doing good with the no smoking. I don't even want them anymore. I barely think about them now. Its hard for me to imagine that at one time I was a smoker, but I remember that when I did smoke it was hard for me to picture me not smoking. I don't go outside here at work anymore. I do kind of miss that, but I don't want to be out there with everyone else smoking. It doesn't bother me to be around other smokers, but I just try not to if possible.

There's only so much exercise I can do in a day with zero energy. I've heard that if you exercise, you will have more energy....yeah.......its not working. It just makes me more tired. I'm allowing myself to gain no more than 20 pounds this pregnancy. I gained 35 with Lilly. I looked up healthy weight for me, my height and current weight and everything and it said that I should gain 15 pounds, but I'm giving myself an extra 5 pounds to play around with. Since this is my second child, I figured I would put the pounds on faster and more weight and have a lot of problems losing it....so I am monitoring it now and keeping track of it. Its hard with junk food screaming my name every night. I did great last night though. I totally turned down a piece of chocolate swirl cheesecake.

Tomorrow work is having a health screening. Its going to be the closest thing I have come to seeing a doctor since I got pregnant. I'm still waiting to see if I qualify for state insurance. I haven't heard anything yet. They did send me something to tell me I didn't turn all my info in to them. So I did that. If I don't qualify, I don't know what I'm going to do. The insurance here at work costs too much (it would take up 2 weeks of my pay just to pay for one month) and the coverage sucks. I'm hoping my cholesterol is in better shape this year. Last year my total cholesterol wasn't that bad but if you separate the good from the bad......it was bad. My HDL (good) was too low, it was 37. My LDL (bad) was too high, it was 117. I did quit smoking, I was told that would help a little. We'll see. I don't know how much being pregnant is going to affect my cholesterol.

Yesterday was hubby's birthday. I didn't really have anything planned for him. I got him a card and a present. He didn't want to do anything or go anywhere. Maybe he was just depressed about getting older, he's only 33. Last year I planned much better. I got him the Wii last year and we went out to Friday's to eat. My birthday sucked last year and I'm prepared for it to suck this year. I have 11 more days til I'm 24. Our anniversary is in almost 3 weeks. We got married June 21, 2008. I was wanting to do it June 7, 2008. The date would have been 6-7-8, but he didn't tell his best man about that date and he was going on vacation that week. That day was also the day right between our birthdays, and it was on a Saturday that year. Oh, well....I can't do anything about it now. Being married the first day of summer is also great. I don't remember it being this hot in '08 around this time, though. Something seriously needs to be done about this heat and humidity. I can handle high temps, its the humidity that kills me.....and makes my hair wild.

9 more days 'til Relay!!! We are so far away from our goal. Everyone is pinching pennies these days and not donating money. I am only $30 away from my first goal. I'm going to add that on. I have probably donated 75% of the money I have raised. Fund-raisers were also slim this year. Next year will be better. I can feel it.