Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Made a doctor's appointment. The earliest time they could fit me in is on the 14th at 8:50. I hate the time. I'm gonna get to come to work for about an hour and a half, then go to the doc's, then come back and finish my day. I wish they could have given me a later time...say 4:00 or so...that way I can just go home after. They told me that I have to take a class before they will see me. A pregnancy class. What exactly are they going to tell me that I already don't know and why in the world do I have to take this class? I have to go this Friday at 10:30. I really hope that I do get to get the state insurance......I really want to go to my doctor. I gotta figure something out. Hopefully I will be able to know the sex of the baby by then. When I go I should be around 13 weeks.
Oh, and I think I have been feeling the baby move about. I'm not 100% sure. Everytime I think I feel something, it stops. I can't remember when I felt Lilly move and I really don't remember what it felt like in the beginning. I remember what she felt like when I was huge. I use to put stuff on my stomach just to watch her kick it off. I remember what those kicks feel like, but not the little flutters.... but yea..... I think I have been feeling the little one move about.
Today is my last day with Lilly before she goes camping for about 2 weeks. I hope she has fun and I really hope they remember to put sun screen on her. Last night we rented Alice and Wonderland....it was a bit odd. I loved it, but I hardly think its a kid movie. There's a lot of fighting and cut off heads floating in water...... Lilly liked it. She's already seen it.
Our 4th of July plans have been....well....I don't know. We usually go to hubby's best friends parents house for a cook out and some fireworks, but they are kinda mad at each other and hubby said we aren't going. We do get to go see my family, but that's early..like noon. Maybe I can talk him into going to the fire works in town. I haven't seen them yet. When I lived at home, they had fireworks in my town...when I moved out, I always worked...when I met hubby, we always did fire works at that cookout. Except for the first time I went to the cookout, I left and took Lilly to go see the ones in town....... and we got rained out. So, maybe this year I'll get to see them. I hope Lilly will get to see some this year. I don't know if she will be around any. She's not a big fan of fire works, though. She hates loud noises, but if she's far enough away or has on some ear phones or something, she is fine.
Yes, I'm cheating today. I have in front of me a big cup of caffeine. Sorry, little baby, I know its making you jittery....but mommy has to stay awake today. I haven't had a decent night's sleep since I can't remember when and I have meetings today that I need to be awake for. Even though the coffee here at work sucks, I gotta stay awake.
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Hubby's feeling a bit down....there's a lot of crap going on with some people at the fire station. I really want to go to one of their meetings and speak my mind and then maybe everyone will shut up. Its ridiculous! I can't go into detail here, but I just can't believe that grown men and women are acting like this. Its no one fault except the people involved and they need to quit blaming everyone under the sun. I just really want to go in there and say something. Its like high school all over again. Grow up people!
Hubby didn't sleep at all last night. I guess he was too upset. I hope he gets some sleep today. I didn't sleep at all Sunday night and spent most of the night up crying because I was just so tired but couldn't sleep.... but I got a little last night. Maybe 4 hours. I got up at 12:30 and went in the get a drink of water and saw hubby was kinda sad and upset about something. So we talked a bit. The situation is just stupid and everything is being blown way out of proportion. And I thought I over reacted!!
Lilly goes camping with her father's mom on July 1 and I won't get her back 'til July 11. I'm gonna miss her. Just thinking about it right now makes me sad. I hope she has fun. Gonna make a doctors appointment today with the clinic. I can't wait any longer...I really need to see someone. Lilly's father's girlfriend's mom is helping me get state insurance. Yeah, I make too much, but this coming paycheck and the one after has less over time on it and that might just help me make it. Fingers crossed!
Its Tuesday and we are yet another day closer to see if we qualify for a loan for a house. Everything's been paid, everything's been turned in.....now all we do is wait. I hope we really do get it. We finally found a house that we both like, its in our price range and we really need the space. Its not a big place, but its big enough for us. I'm almost 3 months pregnant...its seems like we have a lot of time...but we really don't.
Monday, June 28, 2010
My sinuses and allergies are both acting up and I feel miserable. I didn't sleep at all last night.....really.... none. My first day back to work on zero sleep. I'm hoping my boss will have a little pity and let me leave. My nose is stuffy and runny, my eyes itch and are watery, I'm sneezing and coughing like crazy and every time I do one of these my stomach cramps up, my throat is sore, my head wants to explode, I'm dizzy, I feel sick to my stomach, I'm achy everywhere and I am just so tired. And I can't take anything. I was crying at about 3 am this morning cuz I was just so tired and I couldn't go to sleep.
Vacation was ok. Didn't do half the things I wanted to. Took Lilly and hubby's nephew to a water park on Wednesday after he spent the night with us. It was Lilly's first sleep over. They had fun with both the sleep over and the water park. We ended up getting rained out and had to leave the park, though.
Didn't get to sleep in at all over my vacation, but oh...hubby sure did. So...yeah....that kinda made me mad.
Went to go see mom and her land that she bought on Saturday. Its ok, I guess. I'm worried about her getting flooded and about getting found by an ambulance if necessary.
I had a dream that I went to a book signing of the Book of Awesome and I saw Neil Pasricha there. I was the first one in line and I was watching him write down some ideas for the blog and one entry was the perfect muffin.
We should know something by the end of this week if we can get the loan for a house or not. We went in and got our credit scores back and I had some outstanding bills....so I paid them...and I'm broke. Of course the lady said that if hubby would get a job, we would have no problem getting the loan. His credit score is really good and he has no outstanding bills.
Well....that's all I feel like writing right now...my head wants to explode.
Friday, June 18, 2010
The house is 3 bedroom, 1 car garage, family room and living room, propane fire place, a sunroom, an attic, kind of a basement-you can only access it from the outside..the realtor kept calling it a crawlspace-, and a huge yard. There's a lot of trees, so some will have to come down, but its huge compared to all the other yards in this town. The only things that really needs replaced or fixed is all the bedroom doors and frames, one hall closet door and frame, the base boards in the hall and the family room, the walls in the hall and family room, a couple kitchen cabinets, strip the wall paper and paint, a few things are dented but I don't see that as a big problem, a lot of trees and bushes needs to be cut down, some stuff in the garage needs tore out, there's a big fountain that needs to be removed, a gazebo that needs fixed, and a few other things. I'm excited about this house. I've been wanting a house FOREVER and one that needs some TLC is even better. It gives us a chance to make it our own.
Vacation starts whenever I get off work today. I won't be able to post anything until the week after. Hopefully I will come back with some good news.
Thursday, June 17, 2010
This is what another site says. I might start using this one instead, but the pictures from the other one.
Your baby has grown in the last week. Now about an inch long, she is about the size of a grape and weighs less than an ounce. In the coming weeks, she will continue to gain weight rapidly, as her basic physiology is finally in place.
Her heart has divided into four unique chambers and her muscles and organs are able to move independently. Her eyes are fully formed, but at week 9 her eyelids are fused shut. Look for her to open her eyes for the first time around week 27! The tiny tail your baby once had is now entirely gone and her sex organs have developed. However, it is probably still too soon for your doctor to discern your baby's sex. If you are hoping to find out what you are having, hang on just a bit longer. Most parents find out the sex of their baby around weeks 16 - 20, and that is right around the corner.
Week 9 = Mood Swings. Even if you don't feel like you are showing, by week 9 you may have already experienced morning sickness, fatigue and mood swings. Mood swings are common at this stage, so don't beat yourself up if you feel elated one moment and terrified the next. You are not alone! Fluctuating emotions are normal at this stage in the game, but there is hope! Many moms report that their mood swings usually lighten up during the second trimester.
Are you gaining weight? Some women begin to retain water around week 9, which contributes to weight gain. But just like your mood, your weight may be fluctuating, going up and down all day. In fact, it may seem like you get a different number every time you step on the scale.
Did you know? Water retention can cause your weight to go up or down by 5 lbs in a single day! If you find this changing number stressful, it's best to stay away from the scale. Weigh yourself only once a day, or even better, only a couple of times a week.
So I saw where Neil Pasricha is going to be in DC on July 6. I want to go sooooooo bad. That would be a great time for me to go visit my bff. She lives close to DC....like what...an hour or so?? The only downside is that its on a Tuesday. I can't go unless its on a weekend. I mean...I'm taking a week off next week. I can't ask for a few more days off that early. I can't just take one or two days off, especially if I'm visiting my bff. We gotta do stuff, go places and such. Hubby would want to come to..... I have my fingers crossed that he'll have a job by then.........yeah......ok. So anyways, if Neil would just go a couple hundred miles to the west after DC, I would be able to go....and I want to soooooo bad. I already have an autographed book by him, but it would still be super awesome to go.
Finally talked hubby into going out looking at houses. Its a step forward...even if we don't find one we like.... I have like 10 printed out that we are going to go see the location of before we see the inside. We go on the neighborhood, the yard, how close the neighbors are, what the outside looks like, if its on a big hill or not........ if it meets our likes, then we will move on and take a look inside. I don't know if the banks will give us a loan because he's unemployed, but its worth a try.
2 more days and my vacation starts!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
I do need to make a doctor's appointment as soon as possible. There's a screening that can be done around week 11 to help determine if the baby has Down syndrome among other things. I want to be able to do this test. There are other tests that they can do, but some up the risk of a miscarriage or could harm the baby in other ways. I need to find this clinic that I have no other choice but to go to.
A couple months ago we got the movie "Milo and Otis"...ya know...the movie about the cat and the dog... well... the first night we had it, me and Lilly watched it together. She has seen it like 5 times since then, all the way through. We've talked about the movie and laughed with the movie. Last night I came home and she was watching that movie in the bedroom, so I sat down for a while. About a half an hour later, she is sobbing and crying hysterically. Hubby brings her into the family room and I try to get her to tell me what is wrong. After about twenty minutes of big crocodile tears and near hyperventilating, I finally get her calmed down enough to talk. She told me that the movie made her so sad. I asked her if she watched it all the way to the end where they all have babies and go back home to the farm and she said yes, that it all made her sad. So........that movie is put up for a while. She has never cried over something she's seen on tv or in a movie....and she's seen this movie lots of times.
Its getting harder and harder for me to get up in the mornings. All I wanted to do this morning was lay back down and close my eyes. Its also getting harder for me to stay awake during the day. Last night was family movie night and I missed the last 20 minutes cuz I fell asleep. I thought I was tired and sleepy before.... ha! Its worse. I want my energy back.
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
I keep having dreams about the baby. One dream, I went into labor, but when the baby came out it was like 3 years old. Walking, talking....big. Another dream, I went into labor somewhere...might have been my house.... and I was freaking out over a car seat and I wouldn't go to the hospital until I had a car seat. So, I sent my mom and hubby to my storage building to get a car seat and they bring back a paper car seat. By this time, I was holding the baby, but I wanted to go to the hospital. I got mad that they didn't get the right seat and I took off walking. By the time I made it to the hospital the baby had grown, jump out of my arms and started running away. Another dream, I was holding the baby and showing her off to people I hadn't seen in years. Sometimes I dream its a girl, sometimes I dream its a boy.
I got my blood test results back from where they had the health screening here at work and everything looks better than last year. My good cholesterol went up 3 points to 40 (needs to be higher than 60), my bad cholesterol dropped 17 points to 100 ( needs to be lower than 99...almost there!), and my total went from 175 to 157!! My Glucose went down 3 points to 83 (should be between 65 and 99), and my triglycerides went down 21 points to 86 (should be less than 149). I am so excited about this! I have been freaking out over a year, trying to get everything where it needs to be. My blood pressure is up a bit from last year, but I kinda expected that...ya know...with this extra person in me and all. I did have major blood pressure problems with Lilly and that scared me...I hope its not like that again.
So, I was talking to a friend yesterday and I was reminded about all the times I got pulled over. I have never gotten a ticket, even though I did deserve it at least once. The first time I got pulled over, I was going 95 mph in a 70. I was pregnant and a bit late for work. The cop pulled me over, held me up for another 20 minutes and finally let me go with only a warning. The second time.... different car.... my license plate wasn't visible. I had just bought this car from a friend, there was no way to put the plate where it needed to go until I went and got some screws, so I just put it up in my window. Well...it fell, so I got pulled over. My windows didn't roll down in this car, so me and my stupidity opens the door while the cop is walking over. He pulls his gun.............. I shut my door. When he finally gets to my car I tell him that I can't roll my windows down and he tells me I should have waited. Didn't get a ticket then either, just a small heart attack. The third time I got pulled over I was on my way to take a drug test for a job I was trying to get (working at the Toyota plant building transmissions........I miss that job). The cop was on the opposite side of the road, there was traffic in between us and even some big rigs.....and he pulls me over because he could smell pot. Now, how in the world could he even think that it was me with all that traffic and him even being on the other side of the road? I tell him where I'm going and that he's free to search my car.... I told him if he finds a dirty diaper to let me know. He didn't search.....I wasn't smoking any. I figured he could tell that my car didn't smell of pot when he came to talk to me. He let me go. How weird is that? On my way to take a drug test, and I get pulled over accused of smoking drugs! LOL!!!!
Been thinking about what all we can do for our vacation. Hubby had the great idea of taking a train ride. None of us have ever been on a real train, so I'm excited and hope that we do get to do it. The shortest ride is 2 hours, I hope Lilly will be able to hold up for 2 hours. I was wanting to go to an aquarium in Ohio, we are undecided about that. Kings Island is out of the question now. Bowling, movies, museum and water park are still on, though. Maybe even a paddle boat and mini golf day.
Monday, June 14, 2010
What is up with these rubber bracelts shaped like stuff? Its apparently all the rage with the kids. Lilly got one a month ago from a cousin...it was shaped like a mermaid. I bought her some at Relay...a star, guitar, ice cream cone, and a drink.... when we went out for my b-day we found 2 in the window seal...an ant eater and a porcupine. They are shaped like anything and everything you can think of. There's clothes, food, animals, dragons, castles, even the alpabet. These things are everywhere.
Birthday was ok. Lilly slept in 'til 9. I woke up way before she did, but kept going back to sleep. I figured if she was going to let me sleep, I was going to take it. Her and hubby left to go shopping, so I stayed home and did laundry and caught up on my DVR. He called me like a million times while they were out. First to ask me what I wanted....I didn't know...I didn't really want/need/have room for anything. Then, he called to tell me that his cousin is in for a little while. Then, he called to tell me he locked his keys in my trunk and his sister was bringing him home to get my keys. I locked the door and when he showed up to get my keys he knocked on the door. I started laughing and yelled through the door for him to use his keys to get in. I did that for like 5 minutes. He called one more time, but I don't remember why. They had fun out shopping together. They got me an ice cream cake that we have yet to jump into. I also got my first birthday balloon ever. Yes, that's right...I have never had a birthday balloon...at least one that I can recall. I never told them that, they just got me one. I love it. I've had balloons...just not birthday balloons. They got me a few more things...I love it all. Went to IHOP for dinner...... I had forgotten how awesome IHOP is. We have decided to make that our new place...at least until we try everything. I even got a bit of a foot rub last night too!!!
I have Lilly for the next 2 weeks!!! Then, she's going camping for a week and a half with her father's mom. Her father is going almost a month without seeing her. He and his girlfriend and their kid took off yesterday. I don't know where they went, I'm just happy I have Lilly for so long.
Next week is vacation!!!!!!! A very much needed vacation. Some good family time and some good rest. We're not really going anywhere, like the beach or anything. We are staying home and just going to do stuff. Movies, bowling, water park, museum, visit family. Fun, fun, fun. Hubby said something about going to Kings Island, but then he said we can't because I'm pregnant.....didn't think about it until just now, but we're going to have Lilly....we're not going to be able to get on a big roller coaster.......I'm sure I can still do little rides........I don't know. I'm going to have to look up the rides.
**EDIT** Ok...so I looked it up and the only rides I can really do is the merry-go-rounds and like one with a train. There's some I could do if I was like a foot shorter. I can't even ride the little kids rides. So....I guess we could still go, I'll just stand and wait for them and take pictures. I don't know.
I'm officially another year older and supposedly another year wiser.
Friday, June 11, 2010
Haven't had any pains for a couple of days, so that's good. Whenever I wake up in the mornings I am extremely hungry, which is very unusual, but whenever I get some breakfast...I can't eat it. Just the thought of it makes me kinda sick. Right now my tummy is growling, but I just can't bring myself to eat anything. I've never eaten anything this early in the morning because it always made me sick. Before I got pregnant, I couldn't tell you the last time I actually ate breakfast..... maybe my last pregnancy. I use to eat burgers for breakfast back then.....hahahahaha. When I worked at the gas station, my boss would always order breakfast with us. She was the one that introduced burgers for breakfast to me. There's this one place that serves them all times of the day and they are the best burgers I have ever eaten. Haven't had one in a while. I thought about stopping this morning to get one, but as soon as I saw the place, my stomach turned upside down.
What's this I'm hearing on the radio about a 16 year old girl going around the world in a sailboat?? Are you serious?? Why would the parents let their 16 year old do something like that?? Wow.... I think I remember hearing something about it when she first set out, but I haven't heard anything since.
Here's an article about it from msnbc
A 16-year-old Californian girl attempting to sail solo around the world is safe and well, her parents said, after a massive search and rescue operation was launched in the Indian Ocean when she triggered distress signals.
Abby Sunderland was last heard from about 6 a.m. Pacific time Thursday, when she broke off a satellite phone call as her yacht Wild Eyes was pounded by huge waves in the remote southern Indian Ocean. She had reported 30-foot swells but was not in distress at that time.
The search for Sunderland involved Australia, U.S. and French rescue authorities sending ships and a commercial airliner to an area about 2,000 miles southeast of Madagascar and 2,000 miles southwest of Australia.
"We have just heard from the Australian Search and Rescue. The plane arrived on the scene moments ago. Wild Eyes is upright but her rigging is down. The weather conditions are abating. Radio communication was made and Abby reports that she is fine!" her parents Laurence and Mariane posted on her blog.
"We don't know much else right now. The French fishing vessel that was diverted to her location will be there in a little over 24 hours. Where they will take her or how long it will take we don't know," they said.
William Bennett with "Team Abby," speaking outside the family's Thousand Oaks home, said the mast had broken off the boat.
Laurence Sunderland earlier lost contact with his daughter during a satellite phone call and believed her boat may have rolled in treacherous conditions.
BeaconsHer two emergency beacons transmitting signals are attached to the boat and Sunderland's survival suit, and are activated manually by the sailor.
Laurence Sunderland had said his daughter had all of the safety equipment she needed, including a cold water survival suit, life raft and bag with emergency supplies.
“She’s got all the skills she needs to take care of what she has to take care of, she has all the equipment as well,” her brother Zac, himself a veteran of a solo sail around the world at age 17, said before she was found.
The area is one of the most difficult parts of the world to launch rescue operations. British solo sailor Tony Bullimore had to be rescued by an Australian navy frigate in 1996 after his yacht capsized during a race in which another competitor died.
During a blog entry written on Wednesday, Sunderland, who began her trip in January, described sailing her boat through several days of rough weather, which apparently damaged a sail.
She said she was able to patch the sail, but added: "It wasn't the most fun job I've had out here. Wild Eyes was rolling around like crazy."
'Foolhardy'Veteran Australian sailor Ian Kiernan, who held the Australian record for solo circumnavigation of the world, said Sunderland's trip was badly planned, given the mountainous seas and huge wind strengths of winter in the area.
"I don't know what she's doing in the Southern Ocean as a 16-year-old in the middle of winter. It's foolhardy," Kiernan said.
Sunderland had hoped to become the youngest sailor to circumnavigate the globe alone nonstop but had to give up her chance at that record when she was forced to pull into a port at Cape Town, South Africa, for repairs to her boat.
Her parents have been criticized by some in the media for allowing her to undertake the solo voyage at 16.
Sailing experts have said that she was ill-advised to leave California in January, because she risked arriving in the Indian Ocean at the start of the winter season.
In a post on her blog, her family wrote she had battled 60-knot winds and 20-to-25-foot seas before going missing and had been "knocked down" several times — a reference to the boat tipping until the sails touch water.
Abby left Cape Town, South Africa, on May 21 and on Monday reached the halfway point of her voyage.
On Wednesday, she wrote in her log that it had been a rough few days with huge seas that had her boat “rolling around like crazy.”
“I’ve been in some rough weather for awhile with winds steady at 40-45 knots with higher gusts,” she wrote. “With that front passing, the conditions were lighter today. It was a nice day today with some lighter winds which gave me a chance to patch everything up. Wild Eyes was great through everything but after a day with over 50 knots at times, I had quite a bit of work to do.”
Information on her web site said that as of June 8 she had completed a 2,100-mile leg from South Africa to north of the Kerguelen Islands, taking a route to avoid an ice hazard area. Ahead of her lay more than 2,100 miles of ocean on a 10- to 16-day leg to a point south of Cape Leeuwin on the southwest tip of Australia.
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Out of Bounds: What's with kids and death-defying stunts?
On May 15, Australian 16-year-old Jessica Watson claimed the record Abby had been trying to break after completing a 23,000-mile circumnavigation in 210 days. Jessica and her family had sent a private message of hope to Abby’s family, spokesman Andrew Fraser said. “We are hoping she’s OK and are trying to stay positive,” he said.
Last year a Netherlands court concerned about safety blocked a 13-year-old girl’s plan to sail around the world, sparking debate on the role of authorities and parents when children want to undertake risky adventures.
Last month, 13-year-old Jordan Romero of Big Bear, Calif., became the youngest person to scale 29,035-foot Mount Everest. But in 1996, 7-year-old Jessica Dubroff, her father and a flight instructor were killed in a crash in Cheyenne, Wyo., during her attempt to become the youngest person to fly across the country."
What's up with the kids these days? Waning to be the youngest to do something. Before you know it there's gonna be babies climbing mountains, flying planes, and sailing boats around the world.
Thursday, June 10, 2010
I figured it out....if I quit my job then the government will give me health care, food stamps, day care help if I need it, utility help, and free housing. If they help out the unemployed like that, why can't they help out the ones that are out there busting their asses everyday to try to make ends meet. I'm sorry....I'm just really angry about the whole situation. You have no idea what I have been going through with these people.
So...Lilly's father's girlfriend works in the hospital where I want to have the baby and where my OB/GYN is. She said that I can go through the clinic and everything will be free or at least close to free. That counts checkups, medicine, lab work, ultrasounds, the delivery and my 6 week checkup. The only kind of bad thing is that I won't have MY doctor. I will have whatever doctor is available at the time. Right now, I don't care. I have no other choice. I have to go to the clinic or be paying off this baby for the rest of my life.
Your Pregnancy: Week 8 Your growing baby is six weeks old, thanks to the fuzzy math of pregnancy. This fuzzy math is also responsible for the widely believed notion that pregnancy is only nine months long, when in actuality it's closer to 10. Who comes up with this stuff? Obviously a man.
What You're Thinking: "If I have to smell my coworker's tuna salad sandwich for one more second, I am going to lose my cookies. Wait, did someone say cookies?"
Your Body~ You know you need to take your prenatal vitamins in order to assure proper growth and nutrition for your little one, yet every time you swallow the thing, it comes right back up thanks to your woozy stomach. Don't panic:First, try popping prenatal vitamins at night or with food. Having something in your stomach to help absorb those horse pills can sometimes help. Iron is important, but it's also a common cause of nausea. Ask your doc about a vitamin with less iron, or try a liquid or chewable form that might help with the queasiness. If you're still barfing after that, check and see if your obstetrician can prescribe you a vitamin that is specifically formulated for women with severe nausea.
Your Baby~This week, your little tadpole is starting to look a little bit more human. Other exciting developments include:Your baby's eyelids, ears, upper lip and the tip of his soon-to-be adorable button nose are forming. Junior will also sprout webbed fingers and toes this week—which you'll be well aware of in a few months, as baby starts early gymnastics classes inside you.Baby's tiny heart has separated into four distinct chambers and is really ticking now—at a rate of 150 beats per minute. That's more than twice your resting heart rate (even when Brad Pitt is on the screen). Your baby is now a little more than ½ inch long, about the size of the rock in Eva Longoria's engagement ring, and is about as heavy as the check Tony Parker wrote to pay for it.
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Here are the names I like for both boys and girls.....
For girls~and the origin/meaning
Rose~ English or Latin/ Rose (of course)
Asilia~ Swahili/ Honest, genuine
Morgan~ Welsh/ uncertain, perhaps bright sea (I guess the site I'm using doesn't know the meaning)
Madison ~ English/ Son of Maud....even though its both a girl and boy name.
Fiona~ Gaelic/ fair, white, beautiful or Latin/ Wine
Serena~ Latin/ composed, peaceful, cheerful
Rose would be the middle name. I really like Asilia Rose and Morgan Rose. Can't really use Madison because a friend of hubby's family had a kid last year and named it Addison...its just too close.
For boys~ and the origin/meaning
Alexander~ Greek/ defending men
Cameron~ Gaelic/ crooked nose
Dominic~ Latin and English/ Lord
Damian~ Greek and English/ to tame, Polish/ of the people
Benjamin~ Hebrew/ son of my right hand
Taylor~ English/ a tailor
I would like for Alexander to be the middle name. I really like Benjamin Alexander and Cameron Alexander.
Hubby hasn't really said much about what he would like for the name to be. We talked about it before I got pregnant and he was wanting it named after him if it was a boy. Um...no. I want my kids to have their own names, I don't want them named after anyone. And hubby's name is used to much in his family anyway. His first name is his dad's and one of his uncles and he has a nephew with his middle name. Other than that, I don't know what names he likes. I think he's waiting to find out the sex before he starts thinking of names.
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Putting that aside now....... I kept having dreams that I was late to work last night...but I kept waking up and I had plenty of time. Then, when I wasn't having a dream about being late, I wake up.....and I'm late. My alarm clock was making some funny noise, like a really weak spaced out beep, twenty minutes late. I didn't have very much time to do anything this morning. Me and Lilly got up and rushed. I did get to work around the same time I usually do...give or take a few minutes. But dreaming about being late and then I was running late.....how weird is that??!!
Since I showed off a picture of my new baby yesterday, I thought I would share pictures of my first baby with you today.
The most recent one of her is the one of both of us together, the head shot. Yep...that's a piece of gum hanging out of her mouth. I do have more recent ones, just not on this computer. The top one is of course my wedding day.
Monday, June 7, 2010
In the black oval is a shaded oval.....that's my baby. The little circle at the top of the black oval....I forget what that is.
Extremely tired and still in a bit of pain. Tylenol does nothing to ease the pain. I need a day off to do nothing but sleep. Yesterday was kind of a lazy day, but I still didn't get much sleep. Didn't sleep last night either. Lilly kept waking up and I just couldn't get comfortable either. It felt like my pillow was a flat rock, I was hot, I couldn't breathe, and it didn't help that me and hubby was a little upset with each other.
One of our hermit crabs looks like he's falling apart. Not shedding or anything....falling apart. I don't understand why. We've only had this one for about 6 months. They one we've had for a year is still going strong.
My birthday is 6 days away!! I'm not real big on celebrating my birthday. I don't really want anything...except maybe to sleep for as long as I want.
Friday, June 4, 2010
We do walks... around the fountain....its a big fountain. One lap is for survivors, one lap is for the care-givers, and one lap is for the volunteers. Then, anyone at anytime can walk laps. I walk when I start getting sleepy. Its a 24 hour event. Cancer never sleeps, so we won't either. There are also themed laps. This year we have a purple lap, college football lap (you gotta be wearing something resembling one or both of the colleges around here), red white and blue, mardi gras, favorite musical icon....and so on.
We also play games, sing, pray, hold contests, and have fund-raisers. Its something very special to be a part of and I urge anyone who can attend one to go. I'm sure there is going to be a Relay event in your area. Just look it up. Go, be moved, have fun, cry a little. I'm sure you or someone you know has been affected by cancer in one way or the other.
Relay For Life helps raise money for the American Cancer Society to find a cure for cancer. You can go to my personal page here....
Visit, donate, look around the site.
This is a picture from our Relay a few years ago at our capitol. The lighting is a bit dim on the camera. Its much more beautiful in person.
Remember. Celebrate. Fight Back.
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Your Pregnancy: Week 7 If you're one of the "lucky" pregnant women to experience morning sickness (a poorly named symptom of pregnancy as it can strike at any time of the day), remember that it won't last forever. Most of the wooziness tapers off by the second trimester. Of course, mental wooziness can affect you throughout your pregnancy, as you think of your growing to-do list, or wonder about how you're life will change, or worry if you'll know how to handle it all. Luckily, the cure for that wooziness is laying your eyes on your new baby.Wondering what's up with your body, your baby and your life this week?
What You're Thinking: "How can I feel like I'm hung over all day long when I've had nothing to drink in three weeks?"
Your Body~ You're supposed to be "eating for two" but instead, it's hard for you to swallow water. As a result, you're "praying to the porcelain god for two." Morning sickness can leave a pregnant chick exhausted, weak and wondering what on earth she got herself into. Don't throw in the towel just yet, here's how to cope: There are a whole bunch of tricks that pregnant women swear help to reduce nausea caused by morning sickness ... such as sucking on lemon drops or any other hard candy. Sometimes certain foods can help relieve the symptoms of morning sickness. Also, blaming your partner for everything has been known to comfort many women in the throes of nausea. Even if you're experiencing frequent vomiting, try not to worry, as your baby needs very little nourishment this early in the pregnancy. Good thing, since all you've eaten today is two boxes of saltines.If you're noticing weight loss or dehydration, you could have hyperemesis gravidarum, a severe form of morning sickness that occurs very infrequently. Check with your doctor.
Your Baby~This week your baby's brain is growing at a mind-boggling 100 cells per minute within a see-through skull. If you could peer inside, you'd see those tiny brain cells growing and growing and growing (about as quickly as you feel like yours are shrinking and shrinking and shrinking with your "pregnancy brain"!). More high points include: Your baby's face is becoming more defined this week. A tiny mouth hole (which will be ready to wail before you know it!), tongue, nostrils and ear indentations are visible. His or her eyes are wide open, but he doesn't have irises (the colored part) yet. Baby's arm buds are growing. At this point they look more like microscopic ping-pong paddles than arms. Baby's leg buds are also forming and will look like tiny paddles by the end of the week.The umbilical cord—the connection between your baby and the placenta—is now visible.Your baby is now between 1/3 and 1/4 inch long—about the length of a Tic Tac and about as heavy as an eyelash. While that sounds tiny, he or she is approximately 10,000 times bigger than at conception. Crazy, huh?
Your Life~ Keeping the cat in the bag for the next five weeks will be tough. But the relief of finally telling your coworkers that you're pregnant—and not gaining weight at an astounding rate—will be a total relief. Begin to form a plan on how to tell your boss you're pregnant. (Hint: Tell your supervisor before you tell the office gossip!)Talk to human resources so you can be sure of your benefits and legal rights as a pregnant employee.Entertain in your home while the living room is still free of baby toys. If you're too zonked to cook, make it a potluck!Take a moment to appreciate your clean upholstery. With years of parenting ahead, you might never see it this pristine again.
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Doing good with the no smoking. I don't even want them anymore. I barely think about them now. Its hard for me to imagine that at one time I was a smoker, but I remember that when I did smoke it was hard for me to picture me not smoking. I don't go outside here at work anymore. I do kind of miss that, but I don't want to be out there with everyone else smoking. It doesn't bother me to be around other smokers, but I just try not to if possible.
There's only so much exercise I can do in a day with zero energy. I've heard that if you exercise, you will have more energy....yeah.......its not working. It just makes me more tired. I'm allowing myself to gain no more than 20 pounds this pregnancy. I gained 35 with Lilly. I looked up healthy weight for me, my height and current weight and everything and it said that I should gain 15 pounds, but I'm giving myself an extra 5 pounds to play around with. Since this is my second child, I figured I would put the pounds on faster and more weight and have a lot of problems losing it....so I am monitoring it now and keeping track of it. Its hard with junk food screaming my name every night. I did great last night though. I totally turned down a piece of chocolate swirl cheesecake.
Tomorrow work is having a health screening. Its going to be the closest thing I have come to seeing a doctor since I got pregnant. I'm still waiting to see if I qualify for state insurance. I haven't heard anything yet. They did send me something to tell me I didn't turn all my info in to them. So I did that. If I don't qualify, I don't know what I'm going to do. The insurance here at work costs too much (it would take up 2 weeks of my pay just to pay for one month) and the coverage sucks. I'm hoping my cholesterol is in better shape this year. Last year my total cholesterol wasn't that bad but if you separate the good from the bad......it was bad. My HDL (good) was too low, it was 37. My LDL (bad) was too high, it was 117. I did quit smoking, I was told that would help a little. We'll see. I don't know how much being pregnant is going to affect my cholesterol.
Yesterday was hubby's birthday. I didn't really have anything planned for him. I got him a card and a present. He didn't want to do anything or go anywhere. Maybe he was just depressed about getting older, he's only 33. Last year I planned much better. I got him the Wii last year and we went out to Friday's to eat. My birthday sucked last year and I'm prepared for it to suck this year. I have 11 more days til I'm 24. Our anniversary is in almost 3 weeks. We got married June 21, 2008. I was wanting to do it June 7, 2008. The date would have been 6-7-8, but he didn't tell his best man about that date and he was going on vacation that week. That day was also the day right between our birthdays, and it was on a Saturday that year. Oh, well....I can't do anything about it now. Being married the first day of summer is also great. I don't remember it being this hot in '08 around this time, though. Something seriously needs to be done about this heat and humidity. I can handle high temps, its the humidity that kills me.....and makes my hair wild.
9 more days 'til Relay!!! We are so far away from our goal. Everyone is pinching pennies these days and not donating money. I am only $30 away from my first goal. I'm going to add that on. I have probably donated 75% of the money I have raised. Fund-raisers were also slim this year. Next year will be better. I can feel it.
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
The pains in my stomach have intensified. Its not constant, though. Yesterday I was feeling a little sick and having pains in my stomach and boobs and hubby told me that it was all in my head. I wanted to hit him. He said that the day after I found out I was pregnant, I was saying I was sick. What he doesn't understand is that I always get sick to my stomach every day and have stomach pains every day even before I was pregnant. Its just something I have learned to live with, but now that there is a little person in there, it scares me and I need someone to lean on. I still haven't been to the doctor, so every little pain I have scares me to death...and I can't even talk to him about it anymore because he thinks I'm faking it. These pains are real. Before I was pregnant, I would get pains.... they were cysts....I've learned to live with that pain. But these pains are different. They are in a different place and they hurt so much more. I am very very scared about what could be wrong. The pain gets worse after I eat something.
Its getting more difficult for me to go through the day without taking a nap. I'm just so tired. I don't get to go to bed at a decent time and I have to get up so early. I don't sleep well through the night either. I just want to not be so tired. I want help, I want sleep, I want to not have to worry about working so many hours.
I was thinking the other day about finding a new place. It doesn't even have to be a house. I would be happy moving into another apartment...at least its a two bedroom. He hasn't budged. I need to figure something out. There's just no room for the baby. There's no room for us right now. We are all squished in this little apartment and I am dying to get out.
I haven't been on http://www.1000awesomethings.com/ for a few days. I'm sure I'm missing a lot. I was off on Friday and Monday and I haven't checked out today's yet. I need to get over there and see what's going on....and maybe grab some breakfast.
Today feels like Monday. I even missed my shows on tv yesterday because it didn't register that it was Monday. I'm going to be messed up all week now. Oh...today is hubby's birthday. Went hunting for his present on Saturday and finally found it.