Talkin' food

Today is National Strawberry Sundae Day.... who comes up with these things? Can I make up a national day?? Is there a national day of sleep? That would be great!

So I thought I was being productive last night. I put all the things for dinner today in a slow cooker last night. I put my cut up beef, cream of mushroom soup, egg noodles, and milk in the pot and put it in the fridge overnight so I could just hook it up and turn it on this morning and it would cook the entire day while I was at work. Then, I could come home to a wonderful smelling house and dinner would be ready. I thought it'd be a great idea since hubby has a meeting tonight and I wouldn't have time to thaw and cook any food. Well..... I forgot to take it out of the fridge this morning. It doesn't work very well if you forget to hook it up and turn it on. At least I didn't just hook it up without turning it on, cuz then the food would be bad from sitting out all day. At least its still in the fridge. I have dinner planned for tomorrow now.... if I don't forget about it again. I don't know what we are going to have tonight, though. I'll figure something out. I made some shrimp and crab low mein. Hubby liked it, but I thought it tasted very... fish-like. I think I put too much crab in.

Speaking of food... my 'diet' that I had planned on doing isn't going very well. Its very difficult during the summer. Everyone is having cookouts with hot dogs and hamburgers or BBQ's.

Since food seems to be the topic of this, I will continue on about food.

Zach is eating his baby food like crazy. I haven't found anything that he doesn't like or anything that he is allergic to. Someone told me the other day to try to see if he'll eat eggs. Cook 'em and squish 'em up real good. I don't know about that just yet. Maybe in a couple more months or so, I'll give it a go. I'm sure he'll do fine with it, though. His favorite food so far is bananas. I just started him out on meat this weekend and he's loving it.

I've come up with a way to get rid of my excess soft taco shells after we make tacos at home. I always buy too many shells. I take either pizza sauce or just regular tomato sauce and spread it on a shell and add cheese. Heat it to melt the cheese. Add pepperoni sometimes, if we have any.... and Lilly gets a pizza taco for dinner!! She loves them. She has this at least once a week now. Its easy enough for her to make and the extra shells get eaten. Its a win-win. And, **coming up with your own food and inventing new things** is my awesome thing for today! I do this all the time.

Just got a call from day care telling me Lilly isn't feeling well. So.... I might have to leave to go get her... and if I do, I can turn on the slow cooker!! She'll be fine..I think she's just getting too much sun these days. She gets sunburnt at least once a week now. She's outside all time and day care takes her everywhere. They've been spending a lot of time at pools.

Need a change

So....... I don't really have anything to write about today. I'm bored out of my mind and kind of want to go home.

I'm still unsure if I'm taking tomorrow off or not. I might just come in for the extra hours. I was planning on having all 40 hours by the end of today and not use a vacation day, but I could use the over-time. I do have my fingers crossed that I have some kind of raise on my pay check tomorrow. If not... I have a couple applications that I'm going to mail out. I hate to do it, but I desperately need to be making more money. Thinking about working for the state. Pays good, great benefits and where I'm applying is closer to home than my current job. Its just at the point where I hate coming here now. I hate the work I do. The people aren't all that nice. I could give you a list of things, but I'm not. Not today anyway. I don't like that I dread coming to work everyday. I want to have a job that I like, one that I can be proud of. I don't know.

Gonna try tomorrow to get a loan for a house, even though I don't think we can afford it. Even if my credit score is high enough to get a loan, I just don't see how we are going to manage. Unless hubby is making more money than I thought, there's just no way. Hoping that I'll get a good paying job soon, then I won't have to worry. I don't like how everything depends on how much money a person makes. Can't afford to put gas in my car or to pay day care. Might as well just stay home. I'll save money that way. No $900 a month for day care, $60 a month for parking, $175 for gas....  I'm generally a very happy person, until you get money involved. Things are just so expensive these days. I know I tend to talk about money a lot on here, but that just seems to be the biggest problem in my life right now. Actually, I think its the ONLY problem. Everything else is perfect. Ok, almost everything else.

Update on my 'diet.' Yeah, last night I made tacos. I had them on a plate and I very well could have eaten them with a fork, but it would have been a little messy. I guess they don't count as diet food. haha I did bring a salad today for lunch. A gold star for me! Yesterday I had soup for lunch-another gold star! Can't think of what I made for dinner on Tuesday or what I had for lunch. OH, stroganoff for dinner (gold star) and something.... I don't know what...for lunch. So I'm doing ok I guess. I could be doing better with my "food needs to be on a plate and eaten with utensils" diet. Been climbing the stairs a lot too. Every time I go to the restroom, I climb the stairs since they are right there. The first time I went to the 11th floor (I always start out on 3) then went all the way down to 1 and back up to 3. The second time I just went up to 10 and back down to 3. Next time I'll probably do the same. I can now make it to 10 without having to stop and stretch my legs out or take a breather, so that's pretty awesome.

Have you bought your book yet?

Finally got to watch the Today Show with Neil on it. I had to watch it online this morning cuz I didn't have any time yesterday to sit and watch any tv.

Lilly was suppose to have a game, but it rained. No one ever called me to cancel, but I wasn't going to let my 6 year old play in the rain and the cold. I hope they didn't go ahead and have the game. I'd feel bad for all the little kids who went.

Let's see how my 'diet' went yesterday.... for lunch I had a sandwich~strike one. When I got home I had a piece of candy~ strike two. For dinner I made enchiladas, which I put on a plate and ate with a fork. Funny how I came about to make dinner. I didn't have any clean pots and nothing was thawed. I didn't even have time to stand there and wash dishes last night. I just don't know where the time goes these days. I even missed out on giving Zach a bath last night. Before I knew it he was sleeping. I guess missing one day won't hurt anything. I just really like that clean baby smell. So, I was searching the freezer for what would thaw the quickest that wouldn't require any pots. I thought about jambalaya, but I didn't have all the right stuff and we had rice the night before anyway. I thought about tacos, but we didn't have any lettuce or tomatoes. I looked anyway to see if we had any taco seasoning and I found enchilada seasoning. Hmm.... I didn't have any ground burger, so I used ground deer even though we had deer the night before. I used 2 different sized shells, quickly washed out one pot for the sauce. Thankfully I did have some tomato sauce. That's what Lilly eats on her spaghetti, so I always try to keep it in stock. It took me quite a while to make them, but I managed and it turned out really good. (dinner being better than you expected...AWESOME) I was surprised. I really need to wash dishes tonight, I have let it go for 3 days now. I just don't understand where all the time goes........

Zach has this new cry. Its worse than his 'I'm in pain' cry. He screams and then in the middle of the scream, he screams even louder. Imagine how you would scream...now imagine it 10 times louder... that's Zach. He's only done this twice, so I'm not sure what's wrong. He'll do it for about 15 minutes and then he'll just stop. I've checked everything. I check his diaper, I give him Mylicon drops, I make sure the tape on his diaper isn't poking him, I check all his limbs to make sure they aren't bent the wrong way, I look in his mouth, I feel him to see if he's hot, he just ate so he's not hungry, he won't take a paci. We try rocking him, singing to him, pacing, toys, everything.... and he just screams. Then, out of the blue, he's done. I have no idea.

I'm still trying to figure out what kind of job I would like to have. I can't think of anything. I don't really want an office job. I don't know. Anyone have any suggestions? I open to suggestions. I don't want to work with food, I need a job that pays at least what I make now...so no minimum wage jobs or the mall or anything like that. I do like working with the public. I like working with my hands. I like moving around and being on my feet. It has to be a first shift job also. I can't go working evenings or midnights with the kids. I do miss my job at the Toyota plant. That job was fun, but it took time away from my family and my family is more important. Anyone have anything? I don't have a degree in anything. I will, one day, return to school and get something. I was going to college to become a high school Science teacher....kinda sad I missed out on that, but I'm happy for my reasons that I did. I was thinking about maybe going back and getting some kind of art degree.... or try to pursue my love of science. Anywho.........

 

If you haven't seen Neil Pasricha on the Today show yet, head over to their site and check it out. He's so smiley through the whole thing and its way better than the first time I saw him on tv. I forget which show it was but they wouldn't let him get a word in. What are you waiting for? Go. And if you haven't bought the Book of Even More Awesome, I highly suggest that you do. It is very awesome.

Happy May!!!

My Book of (Even More) Awesome is suppose to be in my mailbox today when I get home!! How exciting is that??!!!!

Got a picture text from hubby's mom today showing me what Lilly wore to school... what her father put her in. Yeah..its really not school appropriate. I guess its ok for playing dress up or even going out to the store, maybe...but not school. She's wearing this pink leopard print long shirt with a tiny purple shirt over it. Big poofy, lacy, black skirt and shoes that go halfway up her legs. One~ don't put her in a skirt to play in at school. Two~ the weather isn't going to be very warm and its going to rain like crazy today. Sometimes I would just love to slap some sense into him. Yea, its a cute outfit, but its not for school. Ten bucks says that outfit isn't even hers, its her sisters.

Went to see my dad on Saturday. My step mom hasn't seen Zach since we were in the hospital, I think. Two of my brothers was there. They didn't say much. I tried to coax a conversation out of both of them, but I failed. One brother is very depressed. He was the main reason I went down there. I wanted to try to get him to talk to me without him knowing that I'm trying. I want him to want to talk to me. He's been going downhill for quite some time now. He opened up to my oldest brother. I think he was trying to open up to me on Easter, but I didn't pay any attention and was preoccupied with the kids. I feel bad now for not taking the time out to listen. I want to do something special for him. Staying at Dad's isn't helping. There's nothing to do there. All they all ever do is sit and watch tv. I need to get him and my other brother out of the house every once in a while and do something special with them. I don't really know what. The brother with the deep depression has a phobia of being around a lot of people. I don't know if its just a phobia if he's by himself or if its all the time. I need to be there for him. I need to find a way to help.

Ok, I didn't report on how my first day on the new diet went, so I'll do it now. Its harder than I thought it was going to be. Especially right after Easter when there's a bunch of candy in the house. So, yeah, I cheated. I ate candy. I ate pizza. The pizza was a late night dinner. It was Saturday after we came home from Dad's, Zach was super whiney and crying and I couldn't get in the kitchen to actually cook, so around 10 pm, I gave in and made a pizza. Friday, we had Chinese, (I also had Japanese for lunch) but I did put it on a plate...and ate with chopsticks. Cereal for breakfast both Saturday and Sunday. Sunday I made pork chops on the George Foreman grill. Very yummy. I did have a boiled egg for breakfast this morning. I just don't see how that could be worse than cereal. And I need to eat up all the Easter eggs or they will go bad. They probably are already bad. If I get sick today, we all know why. So, today I have planned to eat my yogurt here in about an hour and then around 1:00 I'll have some Progesso Light chicken vegetable rotini soup. Tonight I'm frying up some deer meat and onions. Fork and spoon!! Its harder than I originally thought it was going to be. I didn't realize how many things I ate with my hands. No more sandwiches, no Subway, no tacos, pizza is out....its crazy. I was beginning to be a big fan of Subway. I was eating there about once a week. I guess if I go, I gotta get the salad. Oh, Thursday for lunch I had a small chili and a baked potato from Wendy's. Its hard and its going to take some getting use to and way more self control.

I think I've come to the conclusion that I really don't want to work here. I know they are trying to improve me and train me to take over, but I really don't want to. This isn't what I want to do for the rest of my life. This isn't what I want to do now. I want a better job. I want a physical job. I hate sitting at a desk all day. I hate not being physically busy. This is how I gained all this weight. I've gained 25 pounds since I started working here, and that was before the baby. This is my first 'sit down' job and I really hate it. I was born to move around. I was made to work. I was raised to work in a blue collar job. I need to get out of these computer chairs, flourescent lighting, confined inside jobs. **sigh** but I'm too much of a wuss to leave. I know my boss depends on me and honestly, I'm scared to leave. What if the next job doesn't work out? What if they go under? I'm not a fan of the 'what if' world. I took a risk a while back and it nearly broke me. I have no money to be risky now. I need to be financially stable. I need to know that my next job will be better and I will be safe, no chance of unemployment. I have that stability here. I know they won't let me go. I know I have a job to come to everyday, the pay could be much better, but I have a job. I hate my job and think I was made to do better things. I guess I'll just have a look around and see what's out there. I'm just not sure what to look for.

I should be able to try again for a house loan this week. I'm going to try on Friday. That gives me enough time to get all of our stuff together and its the only day that I really don't have anything to do here at work. I'll just hop downstairs and have a chat with the mortgage lady. Hopefully she'll give us the green flag. Our apartment is getting smaller and smaller everyday. I would love to have a bigger kitchen, two bathrooms so no one is doing the potty dance, separate bedrooms for obvious reasons, and a yard for the kids to play. We have none of that now. Zach is in the living room, Lilly is in our room, we have no yard, we have our stuff piled up everywhere cuz there's just no room to put any of it away and out of sight. I hate our kitchen, I have no space to do anything. I hate climbing those 30 stairs everyday with a baby in my arms. I hate the fact that Lilly doesn't have much room outside to play. I hate that I can't get her a swing set or a pool or have a place for her to ride her bike. We need out of there and we need out SOON!